So I did it girls.
I finally sent an e-mail to the public adoption agency in my city. It's taken four and a half years of IF to finally do it.
I have no idea how long it will take them to get back to me, but at least I know that I've done it.
I'm petrified. Absolutely petrified.
IF has taught me that I have no control of when I'm going to be a mother. Starting the adoption journey means that other people will be in charge.
Btw, public adoption is free in my province. All we would have to pay for is criminal reference checks and perhaps a paperwork fee from our doctor.
We've discussed going private, but if we were to do that I wouldn't be able stay home full time. It would perhaps be a shorter wait, and we would have a bigger chance of getting an infant, but we can't justify going into debt.
My heart is beating so fast right now.
I took the day off for my annual physical (which isn't completely done since I'm at the end of my period!). I had the entire afternoon to send the e-mail or phone, but I waited until almost 8pm to do so.
Btw, I think that I'm doing pretty well on the F.emara. I'm not the raging monster that I was on C.lomid. Praise God!
p.s. Mr. JB and I bought an obnoxiously large TV for the new basement. Eeek!