JellyBelly you're going to be a mom.
I have no idea when.
Or how long it will take.
Or even how it will happen.
But I'm going to be a mom.
I haven't had a thought like that in a LONG time.
I'm also thinking that I should the C.hildren's A.id S.ociety. I'm tired of waiting for an e-mail response. I also need to feel like I have a tiny bit of control.
My biggest struggle right now is to finally clear out the "room that was to be a nursery."
I've put it off for too long and clearing out the crap (yes, there is just junk in there and it's embarrassing! Our cleaning lady isn't even allowed in the room!) will make me feel better. I have to stop thinking of the disappointment that the room symbolizes.
I need a kick in the pants or at least a deadline or some people to report to. Mr. JB never pushes me to clean it out since he knows how hard it is for me to be in the room.
I'll come up with a timeline sometime today.
I will reclaim that room.