16 August 2014

On SUVs and Minivans

Before we left for our awesome Florida trip, I sold my 2004, dependable sedan for $5000.

Yup, you read that right. 

I have been toying with getting a new car for a while, and our mechanic knew that we were open to selling and another client who was looking, so we took the plunge.

I was having such a hard time because I couldn't justify a bigger vehicle for our family of two.

But we did it. 

We are pg on paper, right? 

Our family of two is a temporary arrangement. 

I'm still having a hard time wrapping my head around that. 

I even said to Mr JB while we were at the dealership that I was planning to give him my car when it's time to move to a minivan. 

I said that even before I could think. I haven't let myself dream of minivans for a LONG TIME. 

After nine years of IF I can honestly answer when someone asks if we have kids, "Not yet."

Btw, we have a meeting with our new social worker Monday morning if you could spare a prayer. 

I can already imagine all of the kid paraphernalia in the trunk and the car seats in the back.

Who am I? 

Not so much infertile, but an adoptive mom waiting for her kids. 

p.s. This is what we got:
p.p.s. Go over and congratulate my dear friend, Amy. God has finally answered her prayers! 

7 August 2014

Healing by the ocean

We've been in sunny and hot (and at times rainy) Florida for almost two glorious weeks. 

It was these two weeks that got me through the hardest days in my classroom.

This is what I imagined when I was feeling sad about my empty uterus.

It was this beach that I channeled when I got anxious about our adoption -- and will continue to channel as we wait. 

Btw, we were paired with a new social worker who we need to call when we for home. She's on vacation too right now. 

I wish I could say that IF didn't come on this trip. 

She did. 

And I've also had a bunch of pg dreams. 

How's that for some strange subconscious craziness? 

This vacation has been full of rest and prayer. 

Two things I've needed so much. 

I'd like to dream that next summer our vacation will be so different, but I know better than to make plans. 

I've made God laugh enough.