Are you freaking serious???? Part 2

Just got two more pg announcements.

One on F.aceboo.k.

And a close friend e-mailed Mr. JB that his wife is also expecting. I don't feel as bad for them because they had a few miscarriages before they had their son.

That makes FOUR people in my inner circle that are pg.

1) My best friend
2) Mr. JB's best friend's wife
3) A close friend from university (who was married TWO years after us)
4) Close friend who dealt with IF before having her son

I'm still feeling sickly. I don't think I have a fever, but I'm all achy and exhausted.

When is it going to be my turn??? I'm tired of being the infertile.

Really, really tired.

Are you freaking serious????

Mr. JB just told me that his best friend's wife is pg.

With their second.

Btw, they got married a year after us.

I also feel pretty gross. I have a low-grade fever, yet again, but at least I don't have the pain from yesterday. I should buy stock in A.dvil.

I'm tired of feeling sick.

I'm tired of being childless.

I'm tired of waiting for AF.

Can I please get a break???????

Prayers please! *Updated

I've been in some pretty intense pain on my lower right side. I think that I ate something that disagreed with earlier today and I've taken A.dvil. It's not as bad as it was when Mr. JB took me to the hospital, but it is pretty bad. I can't even eat because the pain is so bad.

I really don't want to go back to the hospital. I really don't want to miss work tomorrow.

I just want a normal life. I hate always being in pain.

Argh.

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I took some A.dvil and T.ylenol at about 9pm and promptly feel asleep. When I woke up as the Y.ankees won the W.orld S.eries the pain was gone.

The pain was definitely digestion-related. Now I have to figure out what I ate to cause so much discomfort...

Thanks for all of your prayers! I don't know what I would do without all of you!

Yoga Retreating and Real Life

I'm still alive. 

I wasn't kidnapped by some chanting yogis last weekend, nor did I run away to an ashram to deepen my practice (although I have considered doing so in the past).

The weekend was amazing. It was exactly what I needed. I got to be quiet, reflective and spend time in nature. The fall, although colder, is such a beautiful time of year. I love watching the leaves change. 

The best part of my weekend was that I didn't have to be "Infertile JellyBelly" all weekend long. We talked about our lives, our work, our yoga practice, and most of all food. The food at the retreat was phenomenal! I was more than a little sceptical since I do love to eat meat, but the vegetarian dishes that were prepared for us inspired me to cook! I even bought the cookbook and I can't wait until the weekend so I can pick up the ingredients to some of the dishes that we ate! 

It's been a long time since my body felt strong and healthy. I did take it easy, but I did partake in two hour long hikes in pretty hilly terrain. I also took one nap, but that's to be understood. 

My favourite part of the weekend was Sunday morning. I got up early and I got to practice while the sun was rising. I spent quite a bit of time just sitting on my mat and feeling the sun on my face. I could almost feel the sadness and frustration of the past few months melt away. 

I'm still waking up with a low grade fever and I'm still feeling achy. I've been taking so much A.dvil that I'm glad that I buy it at C.ostco! I really hope that these antibiotics kick in soon. I'm also pretty out of whack because of the time change. One would think that one little hour would be nothing, unfortunately my internal clock is super sensitive.

I wish I could take a nap, but I would have 22 little people who wouldn't be so happy about that!