1 June 2014

Trying To Count My Blessings

I have been trying to not worry about the adoption wait.

And I haven't been successful. 

I have been waking up in the middle of the night in a panic. I usually fall back asleep, but in the morning the linger of worry is stil there. 

I have tried to be patient for almost nine years. I have lived through surgeries, medications, blood draws, but it's this wait that seems harder. 

Perhaps it's because I'm exhausted as I always am at the end of the school year.

Perhaps it's because I've been nursing a running injury that has kept me from hitting the pavement. 

Perhaps I've already reached my limit of waiting. 

I'm betting on the latter. 

So in an attempt to distract myself I decided to have lunch and mark in my tiny, but beautiful backyard. I am so blessed to live in such a beautiful place. Mr JB even agreed to an outdoor fireplace that we put to use last night. 

I am trying to wait with grace, I know that God is leading our family to something wonderful. I just wish it would happen sooner, rather than later. 

11 comments:

  1. Waiting is SOOO hard! I know what you mean about reaching your limit of waiting. I'm praying for you - for this wait to be a short one! (((hugs)))

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  2. What's the average wait there? Prying for you! It's coming!!!

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    1. Could be six months to two years. It all depends on which kids come up that need care.

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  3. You are doing so much better waiting and being patient than you think. You are a living example for so many around you to see. Praying your time is coming soon!!

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  4. You must be reading my mind...waiting with grace is tough...I didn't think it would be but the longer we wait...the harder it is. Praying we all get the call we are so waiting for. Lord Willing!

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  5. Beautiful yard.. Waiting is hard..

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  6. I'm with you on the sooner vs. later! I hope and pray that you make it through the last days of the school year and have a chance to get some rest.

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  7. I picture myself having a glass of wine with you back there. I'm excited that you are excited. Is there anything that you can be working on for "the family"? Any activity that can put your mind at ease, if not just for an hour or so each day? Hang in there! So excited for you.

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    1. If I wasn't injured, I would normally run, but I'm not allowed to for another week. I'm starting report cards this week which will be a welcome distraction.

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  8. Ugh. This waiting IS the hardest part! Loving that backyard though! Beautiful!

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  9. Waiting is so hard! We continue our "JB family to grow in 2014" prayer! I hope you had a great summer planned!

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