And I haven't been successful.
I have been waking up in the middle of the night in a panic. I usually fall back asleep, but in the morning the linger of worry is stil there.
I have tried to be patient for almost nine years. I have lived through surgeries, medications, blood draws, but it's this wait that seems harder.
Perhaps it's because I'm exhausted as I always am at the end of the school year.
Perhaps it's because I've been nursing a running injury that has kept me from hitting the pavement.
Perhaps I've already reached my limit of waiting.
I'm betting on the latter.
So in an attempt to distract myself I decided to have lunch and mark in my tiny, but beautiful backyard. I am so blessed to live in such a beautiful place. Mr JB even agreed to an outdoor fireplace that we put to use last night.
I am trying to wait with grace, I know that God is leading our family to something wonderful. I just wish it would happen sooner, rather than later.