3 July 2014

Losing My First Baby

Before any of you panic, we didn't miraculously conceive. 

We had to put down my beloved kitty cat today. 

My first baby. 

My first real pet (fish, hamsters and birds didn't really count since they weren't exactly interactive).

When I lived out west while I was in university I heard meowing in the hallway. I opened the door and in walked a tiny kitten. 

She refused to leave. 

I sat on my couch and she sat beside me and put her head in my lap. 

She chose me. 

Although she lived with my parents because Mr JB is deathly allergic, she was always my cat, although my dad loved her as much as I did. 

It was one of the hardest decisions I've had to make, but we couldn't watch her suffer any longer. 

The vet and her team were so kind and patient. They let me stay with her and I was able to hold her while they gave her the medication. I prayed the Hail Mary and said a prayer to St Francis of Assisi while she passed. 

Afterwards Mr JB and I stopped at the church around the corner, coincidently St Francis of Assisi to say a prayer in the garden in front of his statue. 

My heart feel so broken, but I am so grateful that we were able to have sixteen and a half years together. 

Rest in peace, my beloved Fussy Cat. 


16 comments:

  1. Oh no. My heart is broken for you. You'll be in my prayers. Kitties have such a special place in our hearts.

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  2. I'm so sorry. Our Pumpkin was our first baby, and while they are not children, they do teach us how to love beyond our selves and what unconditional love really looks like. I'm so glad you were with her, I was with Pumpkin and as hard as it was, she wasn't alone. Hugs and prayers sweet friend.

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  3. So sorry. Like Rebecca said, pets have such a special place in our life to teach us what unconditional love looks like. It's so difficult saying goodbye to that. Hugs.

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  4. I know your pain...my dh and I had to give our first beloved cat back to Jesus three years ago...I held him as he passed too. I was told not to watch his eyes...I did just that. I watched the life being taken out of him. I will never forget. I still sometimes cry thinking about the day we let him go even though we have two really fun cats now. I'm glad he wasn't alone...as hard as it is...we have to be there for our pets when it's time to say good-bye.

    We had our cat cremated and we put his ashes in a really nice keepsake box that is in our basement...along with his toys and favorite blanket. Yes, he was that special to us.

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  5. I'm so sorry. :( St. Francis, pray for us!

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  6. I'm sorry about your cat =( What a sweet story how she found you! Praying for comfort for your heart.

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  7. Oh, JB, I am so sorry. We have lost two cats in the years we were married; the first died of a heart attack, but we had to make the decision to put Mara down about 15 months ago. I am so glad that you were able to be with her to the end. Hugs and prayers!

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  8. I'm so sorry. I'm glad she had a good life.

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  9. So sorry to hear this. Many prayers for a healed heart in time.

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  10. I'm so sorry to hear that. It sounds like she had a wonderful life with you and your family, but it's still sad to see them go. I still miss both of my kitties who died (my family had many, but those were particularly mine). They have a special place in our hearts.

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  11. I'm so sorry!! I am still missing Tigger and its been only a few weeks. Its so hard.

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  12. I'm so sorry to hear this. We have a lot of cats at home and we really love them. This is how I felt when we lost our first beloved cat, Peter. :(

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