29 April 2010

End of April Blahs

At least that's what I think I have.

I'm so tired. So very, very tired. I can't blame it all on my class since they're nothing like the craziest that I taught last year. Perhaps it's because of the hockey playoffs. I fell asleep on the basement couch and I made it up to bed at around 12:30am. I feel wiped out, and it's quite early for me to feel like this. I'm usually like this right before school ends, but we're a LONG way from there (yes girls, I teach until June 30th, ouch).

Perhaps it's the time of the month. I'm reaching mid-cycle and this is always the most stressful time for me. I'm feeling the must TTC pressure. Last cycle's false + really through me for a loop and I'm feeling the type-A "I don't want to fail" attitude that I felt when we first started on the TTC ride.

I want a baby girls. There's no way around it. I'm tired of being disappointed month after month.

I don't know if all the white wine and guacamole in the world can fix this one (although it does take a bit of the edge off).


  1. I want a baby for you!!! Your real positive will come and get some good rest, it helps not passing out when you are supposed to be using days of "opportunity" (that is what the nurses told me!!!) hahahahaha

  2. Maybe good can come from last month's false positive if it renews your drive like it sounds like it has. Hang in there!

  3. That baby is going to come sooner or later, and I am praying hard that it's SOONER.

    June 30? Wow! Hang in there!

  4. Hang in there and give it the old college try!!!

    I know your REAL positive is coming soon!!!

  5. A BIG FAT POSITIVE will come your way very soon! keep staying positive!

  6. hugs lady. You're not failing, not at all, it just feels like it sometimes.

  7. Could you upgrade to a margarita?

    Just take the plunge and do it as much as possible. Don't let the devil get you down!!!

  8. that erin is a girl after my own heart :)

    you better believe i am going to hit you up for tips the next time we go to paris (only been once for a weekend)

    hang in there - glad the false + has given you a kick in the pants - but they are rough, there's just no two ways about it

  9. Good thoughts and prayers coming your way! :)

  10. I hope the disappointment ends soon.

  11. Sorry about the blahs. I think we all want a baby for you too!

  12. I know how you feel. I want so much to be a Mommy too! Like you, my heart and arms ache to hold my own baby! You know what? Let's continue praying for each other, okay? In the meantime much love and hugs to you, my friend!

    Hey, you have endometriosis too, right? I found a wonderful Nutritionist here in Mass. who had nineteen surgeries to get rid of endo. She met a herbal doctor in Japan after her last surgery who taught her the importance of eating good food. She hasn't had any more surgeries since then and her endo is now in remission!

    I have a link to this doctor's website on my blog. There is a great article on her blog about endometriosis and diet. She recommends eating an anti-inflammatory diet. I have found her diet and recommendations to be so incredibly helpful and informative. When you have a chance, please read it. Hoping it can help you (and others with endo too!).

    You are in my thoughts and prayers!

    May God Bless you and hubby!

    Maria In Mass :)

  13. I'm so sorry. I know what you mean. I pray your day will come REAL soon!!! Hugs

  14. This month after month of aching need not being fulfilled is truly painful. I'm with you there :(.
    I agree with Erin, sometimes you need a little tequila :).

  15. How about a mojito and guac? That was my weakness.

    I remember I had a false positive on a testing strip I'd thrown out -- and pulled out of the trash the next morning to see a plus sign. Evil test. I am so sorry.

    When I was teaching I just felt like all the lifeforce was sucked out of me by year's end -- it is such a difficult job -- you rock -- remember that.

    And hockey play-offs? G hasn't been to bed before one most nights -- and he is hurting -- and yes, it's playoff season...

    I'm thinking of you my steadfast friend,