19 April 2010

I wish....

...that I was blogging from the lab saying that I was waiting to bet my blood drawn.

Alas, I'm not.

I woke up bright and early to test (yes, using a dollar store test) and the flow was definitely more red and AF-like than last night. To top it off the test was definitely negative. No faint line, nothing (and yes, I checked in natural sunlight, the light in my bathroom AND my bedside lamp.

My boobs aren't as tender and I'm definitely crampy.

I guess I am one of the few than has gotten a false positive.

I also checked my chart this morning and two cycles ago I did make it to P +15. I wasn't very confident about that cycle since we didn't try very hard (it was the month that my neighbour died and we weren't in the mood at all that month!).

I will take my blood work requisition with me today and if the bleeding stays light (as it is right now) I may go after school. Mr. JB and I are meeting with our Napro practitioner after school 'cos I have no more stickers and I need a new chart. Perhaps she'll have some insight to what the heck went on yesterday!

Thanks again for all of your prayers and support. It would be an understatement to say that I'm disappointed.

Jesus I trust in you.

32 comments:

  1. So sorry JB. Hugs and prayers coming your way.

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  2. I wish I could hug you. :(

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  3. ((hug))
    I know exactly how this feels, Im sorry. May God's grace be with you all day... praying for you <3

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  5. I second Cathy's comment. I wish I could hug you. Here's the best I can do via cyberspace (((((Hug)))). You are in my thoughts and prayers today!

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  6. I had a false positive with a plus-minus test last year. They should be banned! We don't need to deal with that after all these years. Ugh. Maybe you should still get your blood drawn just to see if something was going on. I'm praying for you!

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  7. i am so familiar with false + on hcg. full on symptoms and all. ive started to when and if im curious to poas dollae store tests and if its faint and gets fainter each time i know im not pregnant. typong from my phone so thats why its jacked up. ;) so sorry u had to go through this. i know our dollar store tests r so sensitive they pick up single digit hcg numbers. ;)

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  8. I'm so sorry. Prayers are going up.

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  9. ugh, so sorry to hear. what a crummy way to start the week. sending prayers asap!

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  10. Ugh. I am disappointed too.

    I do know exactly how you feel right about now. It sucks.

    I will keep on praying for you. I still have LOTS of hope for you!!

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  11. I still to this day consider my false positive from hCG... the most devastating experience of this journey. I still remember the date of it, Jan 9th 2008. :( I had to take the day off work when I found out it was not a real positive.

    I wish I could take this pain away from you, but as I said before maybe this is a premonition of good things to come in your near future.

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  12. JB I am so sorry. I know you must be devestated. Hugs and Prayers.

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  13. (((HUGS)))) JB! I am so sorry!

    I had a false positive in April of last year. My hopes were so high then, but was nothing.

    I have seen some of the patients at our NaPro practice have a cycle like yours and go on to conceive in the next couple cycles. I am still SO hopeful for you!! I think that this shows that your regime in working. :)

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  14. Sorry babe! That happened to me once, too.

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  15. I get my tests in packs of 30 or some such thing (ovul and pg) from saveontests dot com. Hella cheap and super sensitive. (except you pee in a tiny dixie cup and dunk instead of poas, though they have those too.)

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  16. I had one of those, but, I dont think it was a false positive as I had the beta drawn and it was there, but, low, it was for me a really early miscarriage, and it was the most horrid thing on earth. I got a blue cross on a saturday morning and one of my worst periods ever on monday, from then on in I never tested again until I was at least 7 days late (which never happened becuase of the discovery of the U.O.D).

    Hugs hun, and if you need someone I am here - okay?

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  17. oh I'm so sorry! I have never had a false + but it has to be the cruelest of jokes.......I also wish I could give you a hug! our prayers are with you...........

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  18. I am so so so sorry. This is just heartbreaking.

    I will still keep praying though, both for this to still work out and also for peace if it doesn't.

    I'm so sorry you are having to go through this after everything you've already been through. It just doesn't seem fair.

    Hugs!

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  19. Oh crap. I was praying for a +. Hang in there and sending more hugs :)

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  20. I am so sorry. :(

    I think Erin has a really good point. There is great hope for the next few cycles!

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  21. Sending you big hugs!!! I am so sorry you are having to deal with this disappointment. I feel like I have no words that will comfort your heart right now, but please know you are in my prayers!

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  22. couldn't get on the computer much more yesterday but was followin. along on my phone!

    so sorry jb! prayers and hugs...

    (and, now we are cycle buddies, I'm cd1 today too)

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  23. Arg.....I am so sorry!! I was really hoping for you....Its just not fair! I hope the NaPro clinic has some information for you! your in my thoughts.

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  24. Gosh JB I know how you feel, those darn tests can certainly drive you CRAZY! I agree with the other ladies maybe getting a blood test would be a good idea. Glad to hear your hubby will be going with you to see your doc today...that certainly helps to have him by your side every step of the way. This is what we do when i got my last two negative preg test recently in the last few months (well the second IUI round i got a + and than a negative..so you can guess i was happy..sooo happy and than totally depleted of any hope!) my hubby and I usually go out for dinner or do something happy..i know it sounds weird but we would always "celebrate" through the good times and especially the "trying" times in our life. It helps us cope. Keep us posted! A POSITIVE will come soon to you because you are trying and not giving up! stay strong.

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  25. Oh Jesus come quick to the one who declares her trust in You. Bring comfort. Bring peace. Bring healing balm for the soul. And most of all, bring hope.

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  26. i think you may have experienced a chemical pregnancy. i've had several-- its a super early miscarriage before any tissue has formed. you only aware of it if you test early early and it can be confirmed with a blood test. so sorry this wasn't your month

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  27. oh, sad! I am so, so sorry. I like Erin's thoughts ... hopefully this shows things are working well and you'll have a real positive soon?

    I echo Stacy's prayer...

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  28. I'm so sorry. It's so odd that the cheap tests are MORE sensitive than the others. So many things about IF are odd. A false positive is not a nice trick. Here's hoping, for your sake, that it proves to be a real positive.

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  29. I'm so, so sorry. You've been through so much and I was really hoping that this was it for you. I definitely agree with AYWH that the +/- tests need to be banned. I hear that they have the highest rate of false positives.

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