21 April 2010

One more thing....

I didn't add this to my list of things that I learned from the Tale of the False HPT, but it's pretty big.

I was having a board of directors meeting tonight at my house (with the most annoying woman in the world, it took all the strength in my body to not kick her out of my house!) and my fertile best friend called. Mr. JB said that she was checking on me, which is so sweet.

You see, my fertile bf was by my side when I had my breakdown in university. We were roommates and she helped me navigate my way back to sanity and she's always been worried (sometimes a little too much!) that I'm going to fall into that abyss.

I asked Mr. JB what he told her and he said, "She doesn't realize how strong you are JB."

And he's right, IF has given me strength I didn't know I had. I didn't know that I would need to be this strong, but almost five years later, I have channeled strength from places I didn't know existed.

So I guess that makes it 12.

And that's a good thing, right?


  1. I believe it is......I think strength is the one BIG think I can take away from this and say it's a good thing to have! Strength in myself and in my marriage.......

    I still praying so hard for you. I'm sorry you have to be strong.

  2. Yes, your strength is amazing and inspirational. It is what keeps me coming back to your blog..... You are a phenomenal Christian.

  3. I can totally see that. I was at first AMAZED. Simply AMAZED at how you received your "hCG-residual false positive hpt" because it was so much better than how I had reacted. But then I thought... I was BARELY into the trenches of IF at the time of mine. 1.5 yrs. I had not yet learned obedience through my cross.

    You clearly have.

    And it is a beautiful thing!
    I know God is going to answer your prayers soon. He has already blessed you abundantly with so many gifts, and you are so strong and wise that you never overlook them :) Something I aspire to...

  4. You definitely are strong, especially with every thing you've dealt with in the past year. Praying for you.

  5. yup, that old saying about what doesn't kill you is actually true isn't it?

  6. :) That's wonderful JB. Strength rooted in faith. Beautiful.

  7. Totally - IF does make us dig deep and find strength, it makes us realize how strong we are and it can even make us stronger.