I wish that I could feel more hopeful.
Perhaps it's because we had a pretty sombre weekend. Attending a memorial service for a family member is never a fun occasion. I don't know why I didn't expect Mr. JB's uncle's memorial to not be sad. I know that I have a low tolerance for any sort of negative emotion and I think that I shut off feeling sad. I found myself tearing up more than once while the eulogies were being said. Mr. JB's uncle was ill for most of the time that I knew him and his last few months were very difficult. I wish that I knew the funny, vibrant man that was described more than once.
It also doesn't help that one of the dads from my class (who is a high school teacher) gave me a hard time on Friday. His daughter has a problem with wetting herself and he said that I have too many constraints in my class. The rule is that the kids can't ask to go to the washroom while I'm teaching (which is the same in all the other classes in the school, I'm sure). My lessons don't take more than ten or fifteen minutes (it is grade one after all) and I'm not going to re-teach a lesson for one kid. Anyhow, she had another accident a couple of weeks ago TEN MINUTES after most of the class went the washroom. It was after lunch and it was a warm day so I let all the kids that asked go to the washroom. This kid didn't ask, so she didn't go. If she had asked I would've let her go. I didn't know that she peed herself until the kids got up from the floor to go back to their desks.
So this dad said that he doesn't know why his daughter is so reluctant to ask to go to the washroom. He made a snide comment about his daughter not being comfortable with me and that's why she pees herself. I reminded him that I didn't NOT let his daughter go to the washroom, she just didn't ask. He also said that he lets his students go to the washroom whenever they want. Being a high school teacher he has no idea. His classes last 75 minutes and he teaches ONE subject. I have to juggle every subject and I have about 40 minutes to teach everything PLUS I have to fit in snacks, recess, lunch and time to do work.
Anyhow, I was pretty upset since I don't think that I'm scarring his child (he basically said that I was). I told my principal about what happened and he said that I'm not to meet with this dad every again. He saw how upset I was and he also knows that this particular father is high maintenance. Regardless, it upsets me that this dad thinks that I don't have his daughter's best interest at heart. I did speak to the girl at the end of the day and I reminded her that if she really has to go to the washroom that she can just go (the rest of the class knows this rule, I don't know why I have to remind her).
Mr. JB and his brother are both having issues at work that are much more serious than mine. Please pray for my BIL. He's in charge at his school for the next little while and there are some serious issues that he has to deal with that I can't write about here. Needless to say, he said that this coming week will be one of the most difficult of his career.
In cycle news, I started to see some great quality CM yesterday (10KL woohoo!). I wish that I didn't feel the pressure at this point in my cycle, but I do. It also doesn't help that the hockey playoffs are going on and Mr. JB's team is still playing. I know that I have to relax since being all stressed out isn't going to help anyone!
p.s. I went to the C.oach outlet yesterday to get my mom her Mother's Day present and I got a little something for myself as well. I figure that Mr. JB got a new car, so I deserved to get a treat!