When we got home from my father-in-law's house yesterday afternoon I looked out our living room window and I was suddenly in awe of how green everything is.
Winter is long and cold up here in Canada. Every year when it's unbearably gray and yucky I forget how lush things get in the springtime. Spring seemed to surprise me this year. Perhaps it was because I was in the depths of the feel-me-sorries, perhaps because it went from being comfortably cool to being HOT today, I'm not quite sure. But I do have to say that looking at our sod taking root and being so beautiful (it's like having a lush carpet outside, our grass has NEVER looked this good, God bless whoever invented sod) and seeing my plants grow is making me happy.
I was never really interested in gardening. One of my friends landscaped our postage stamp sized backyard for a wedding present and it wasn't until last year that I actually started enjoying working in the dirt. Growing my own lettuce (this year I have five different varieties!) and herbs definitely has a pay off. There's nothing like making homemade pesto!
I'm lucky that things are starting to sprout as I'm starting to feel better. I guess my revelation and surrendering my fertility over to the Lord coincided with the perfect time.
I know that I will go through a low point again. It's inevitable in a struggle, there are peaks and valleys. I'm so lucky that I have such a wonderful support group here to lift me up when I need it. Thank you all for your prayers.
I really hope that this is a turning point for me, or at least a step in an upward direction.