Okay girls, I'm having a low moment.
I was changing after school and the thought popped into my head: How much more of this can I take?
We've been doing Napro since April 2008. I had my first surgery April 2009 and my second on August 2009. We've been officially trying since December 2009.
I'm tired. I'm fed up. I'm used to being IF. I can barely imagine being pg.
It will be five years of trying in July.
Five years of disappointment. Five years of feeling sad. Five years of not having the one thing that I have wished for.
Before my surgeries I wished that the doctor would tell me that I couldn't have children so I could shut this horrible chapter in my life. I wanted closure, rather than continued disappointment.
How much longer can I do this without losing my mind?