21 October 2011

JellyBelly - HCG = :( -- Updated

I was driving home today and I was wondering why I felt like crying.

My day wasn't particularly bad. The kids weren't any crazier than usual. In fact I actually figured out that if I ignored the misbehaving kids and praised the ones that were behaving that they would understand what I wanted.

Then it hit me. No HCG. I couldn't take it for this cycle since Dr. Hilgers needed to see what my hormones looked like without medicine.

So I'm not losing my mind, I just feel like I am.

All of the strange weeping I've been doing has a clear explanation -- honestly every time one of my students did something good this week I've had to wipe tears out of my eyes (then again, perhaps I was crying tears of joy!).

Oh HCG, I miss you so much. I thought that PMS and crashing hormones were a distant memory, but I was wrong.

I hope that my break from HCG is very temporary because I can't take feeling like this! 

Yet another reason why I want my surgery to happen!

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Update: All the stress from yesterday may have been for naught -- I've started spotting, albeit very lightly. I'm surprised since it is only CD23 and P+4. I guess I REALLY need HCG...

10 comments:

  1. I :heart: HcG. It's wonderful. So sorry you can't have any but surgery and healing awaits!

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  2. Oh that does explain a lot. That's a good strategy with your students. Hope it works!

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  3. You and hcg get along a lot better than me and hcg do lol. Me + Hcg = bad, bad, bad. Hope this is the worst you feel for a long time.

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  4. HCG can prevent all the pre-AF crying? Sign me up! Hahah - but seriously - it is good to have a chemical reason why you are so crazy, and not have to search for deep emotional ones. Surgery soon!

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  5. hey glad to hear you figured out why you have been "crying" a bit more lately...Hugs! see you later today! dress warmly...

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  6. Yuck! hope you get some relief soon. At least you weren't irritable with your students ;)

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  7. Oh I looooove me some HCG. It stinks to go without!! Hang in there Jellybelly.

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  8. The emotional whirlwinds can drive a girl nuts! I haven't tried HCG, but I am on estradiol & promethium. I don't have PMS now, I just have crazy crying when CD1 arrives! :) You are so close now... hang in there! I'm so hopeful that this will be the answer for you!! Hugs!

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  9. It stinks to go without!! Hang in there Jellybelly.
    MaxBurn

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