September has always felt like the start of a new year. Perhaps it was one of the reasons that I went into teaching. The promise of starting anew every September is something that I have always looked forward to.
Until this year.
I have been having anxiety attacks all day. My heart has been racing and I haven't been able to relax. We even checked out a new dessert place in the neighbourhood and I still couldn't enjoy the moment and my mango sorbet.
I've been so zen about my classroom set-up. I finished everything in two days. I have the first week of school planned and photocopied. I've taught this grade before.
I have no reason to be nervous.
I think that the anxiety is coming from fear. Fear that my body isn't ready for working full time. Fear that I'm not going to be able to handle 23 6 year olds and their demands. And most of all, fear that I will see another school year as a sad infertile woman.
Every September since I got married I have thought to myself, "Next September you're going to be home with your baby. You won't have to worry about this back to school business!"
This is my fourth September without a baby.
My fertile best friend's son asked me if I had a baby in my belly too. I had to tell him, "No buddy, Auntie JellyBelly doesn't have any of her own babies, but she loves you very much."
Ouch.
Before we packed up and left the island yesterday I turned to Mr. JB and asked him that perhaps next summer we would be packing up our baby's stuff to go home. For the first time since my surgery I got tears in my eyes because of my barrenness. I've been numb since my surgery. I would say that I have been more hopeful, but I still have the past four year of trying still on my shoulders. I know that even if I become a mother there will always be a part of me that mourns for all of the time I spent childless.
I would give so much to be able to be home tomorrow. Despite all of my education and all of the passion I have for teaching, I would give all of it up to be a stay at home mom. I would love to make Mr. JB his breakfast and see him off. I'd cook dinner again. I'd clean my house again -- well, I don't know if I would fire my cleaning lady, but I would certainly make more of an effort. I would fill the empty part of my heart with the joy that my child would bring me.
I really hope that this is my last barren September.
7 September 2009
4 September 2009
Island bound!
So Mr. JB and I are off to my fertile best friend's cottage for a few days. I'm so excited that I'm all ready for school and that we can get away before the craziness starts up next week.
There is internet up there, and although I will be bringing my computer with me, I don't know if I'm going to be checking in.
Btw, I love this B.ella B.and! I'm going to continue to wear it even when the swelling goes down. Thanksgiving dinner is going to be so comfortable with this thing on!
Happy Labour Day everyone!
There is internet up there, and although I will be bringing my computer with me, I don't know if I'm going to be checking in.
Btw, I love this B.ella B.and! I'm going to continue to wear it even when the swelling goes down. Thanksgiving dinner is going to be so comfortable with this thing on!
Happy Labour Day everyone!
1 September 2009
One last kick at the can
So my classroom is set up and my first week of school is already planned (photocopied and everything!). I have never set up so quickly! I guess having three former students working all day on Thursday and then having two cousins help yesterday was the trick! I guess it also helps that I had set up a grade on classroom before and I wasn't stressed at all. Perhaps having major surgery puts things like classroom set up into perspective.
Yesterday was the first time since my operation that I didn't feel completely dead tired after doing stuff. My cousins and I worked until almost 6pm and didn't have any incision pain. Mind you a lot of the prep work that I had to do involved typing stuff at the computer and organizing paperwork. Any of the physical stuff I had to do I delegated to my helpers. I really hope that my little rolling stool is going to help with my energy level. If I recall the beginning of last year I lost almost 10 pounds from the increased activity level of teaching little kids.
Which brings me to a question: For those of you stage IV endo girls out there, how long did it take for the swelling in your abdomen to go down? My tummy is definitely still swollen and a little distended. When I touch my stomach it still feels tender on the inside and my incision is definitely still numb. Also, did any of you have any strange sensations while urinating? I know that I had endo removed from my bladder and most of the time when I pee it just feels strange. Also my urine is a bit cloudy. Should I be concerned?
I see my Napro doctor on the 24th so I'm going to have quite the long list of questions for her.
And I'm enjoying wearing the B.ella B.and that I bought. I love not having to do up my pants! Thank God that looser fitting tops are in fashion right now!
I better get my act together. I'm off to get a pedicure and then Mr. JB and I are going to the E.xhibition in the city. It's become an end of summer ritual and post-surgery or not, I'm not about to miss it!
Yesterday was the first time since my operation that I didn't feel completely dead tired after doing stuff. My cousins and I worked until almost 6pm and didn't have any incision pain. Mind you a lot of the prep work that I had to do involved typing stuff at the computer and organizing paperwork. Any of the physical stuff I had to do I delegated to my helpers. I really hope that my little rolling stool is going to help with my energy level. If I recall the beginning of last year I lost almost 10 pounds from the increased activity level of teaching little kids.
Which brings me to a question: For those of you stage IV endo girls out there, how long did it take for the swelling in your abdomen to go down? My tummy is definitely still swollen and a little distended. When I touch my stomach it still feels tender on the inside and my incision is definitely still numb. Also, did any of you have any strange sensations while urinating? I know that I had endo removed from my bladder and most of the time when I pee it just feels strange. Also my urine is a bit cloudy. Should I be concerned?
I see my Napro doctor on the 24th so I'm going to have quite the long list of questions for her.
And I'm enjoying wearing the B.ella B.and that I bought. I love not having to do up my pants! Thank God that looser fitting tops are in fashion right now!
I better get my act together. I'm off to get a pedicure and then Mr. JB and I are going to the E.xhibition in the city. It's become an end of summer ritual and post-surgery or not, I'm not about to miss it!
30 August 2009
L.upron + Clouds = Headachy JellyBelly
I'm thinking that the title of my post is pretty self-explanatory.
We had designs on going to the C.anadian N.ational E.xhibition today, but my head is not cooperating. I felt pretty good this morning, but as the day has progressed my headache has just gotten worse. I seem to recall that when I got my first dose of the lovely L.upron that I had the same issues with getting annoying headaches, which are only made worse by cloudy weather.
I'm so glad that I didn't get this dose of the lovely L.upron in July when the weather was just horrible and rainy!
It also doesn't help that we've had quite the day trying to figure out the guest room bed.
You see, I had the bright idea of salvaging a bed from my neighbour's garbage. It looked great -- a double brass bed with the bed rails were just sitting there waiting for the garbage pick up. We had just promised our guest room furniture to a needy family in the neighbourhood (a single dad, with four girls under the age of 10!). The furniture was taken away in mid-July and Mr. JB took his sweet time painting the brass bed white (it was a bit rusty, don't worry, I wasn't being heartless!).
So this morning I decided that the bed had to be assembled because my cousins will be staying with us tonight (the girls are going to be helping me at school tomorrow). We soon discovered that the metal bed frame was for an extra long bed. Who knew? We tried to reconfigure the frame, but there was no way around the extra six inches at the end. So we admitted defeat and went to the local thrift store to see if they had anything (they didn't). Lucky for us a mattress store was just across the street. So for $101 we bought a brand new adjustable bed frame.
Mr. JB is trying his best to put it together which has proven to be difficult since he is the most un-handy man in the universe! I had to figure out how to put the frame together! The thing that I find the most frustrating is that when he gets frustrated the job instantly becomes impossible. I really wish that I was in better physical shape. I would've just put it together on my own, but I'm just not up to it.
I've got to lie down again. The girls are going to be here in the next hour or so and I need to rest!
We had designs on going to the C.anadian N.ational E.xhibition today, but my head is not cooperating. I felt pretty good this morning, but as the day has progressed my headache has just gotten worse. I seem to recall that when I got my first dose of the lovely L.upron that I had the same issues with getting annoying headaches, which are only made worse by cloudy weather.
I'm so glad that I didn't get this dose of the lovely L.upron in July when the weather was just horrible and rainy!
It also doesn't help that we've had quite the day trying to figure out the guest room bed.
You see, I had the bright idea of salvaging a bed from my neighbour's garbage. It looked great -- a double brass bed with the bed rails were just sitting there waiting for the garbage pick up. We had just promised our guest room furniture to a needy family in the neighbourhood (a single dad, with four girls under the age of 10!). The furniture was taken away in mid-July and Mr. JB took his sweet time painting the brass bed white (it was a bit rusty, don't worry, I wasn't being heartless!).
So this morning I decided that the bed had to be assembled because my cousins will be staying with us tonight (the girls are going to be helping me at school tomorrow). We soon discovered that the metal bed frame was for an extra long bed. Who knew? We tried to reconfigure the frame, but there was no way around the extra six inches at the end. So we admitted defeat and went to the local thrift store to see if they had anything (they didn't). Lucky for us a mattress store was just across the street. So for $101 we bought a brand new adjustable bed frame.
Mr. JB is trying his best to put it together which has proven to be difficult since he is the most un-handy man in the universe! I had to figure out how to put the frame together! The thing that I find the most frustrating is that when he gets frustrated the job instantly becomes impossible. I really wish that I was in better physical shape. I would've just put it together on my own, but I'm just not up to it.
I've got to lie down again. The girls are going to be here in the next hour or so and I need to rest!
27 August 2009
One tired girl
So I put in my first full day of work since the end of the school year and I am completely wiped. I do have to say that I had a very productive day. My classroom was used for summer literacy camp so I had to put everything away at the end of the year. I am very happy to say that my room was just the way that I left it.
I love returning to my classroom after the summer vacation. The caretakers emptied it and polished and waxed the floors. I only wish that my floor could stay that shiny all year round!
I had three former students that are about to start the 10th grade help me out. These girls were stellar as students and they were an incredible help. I have one bulletin board up, all of my groups set up and they distributed all of the school supplies that I'm giving out (pencil, eraser, glue stick and homework folder). They also labelled duotangs and helped me sort through some books. It was great to have them lift things for me. Primary sized desks are pretty light, but I really didn't want to strain myself unnecessarily.
It was great to hang out with the three of them. The girls caught me up on all of the gossip and one of them said that she learned so much from my class. They also mentioned that they were pretty upset at their grade 7 and 8 teacher (she was the one on my old staff that ALWAYS talked about being pregnant, see this if you want a refresher) because she didn't prepare them for high school. I tried to hide my delight at what the girls were saying, but I felt such joy at hearing their complaints. I guess I should be pretty flattered that the girls sought me out to ask if they could help me. They do have to complete 40 hours of community service hours in order to graduate, so we were helping one another out, but it was truly a pleasure to be with them today.
By the end of the day my incision was really starting to hurt. I did buy a knock off B.ella B.and, but it still doesn't provide enough holding power. I think that I'm going to have to buy a support from e.Bay since I can't seem to find one anywhere near my house. I even checked the local hospital pharmacy and it didn't carry anything!
Btw, my workshop went really well yesterday. The attendance was higher than anticipated and according to the feedback forms, we did really well. I had to rush through the portions I was responsible for because we were low on time. I think that if we do the workshop again that we're going to need two days. We didn't have a lot of hands on time and I know from experience that I would appreciate doing stuff rather than listening! My former teaching partner was annoying as usual. She was the only one that didn't speak French! The workshop was called, "Welcome to French Immersion." She's so dumb. I'm so glad that I don't have to work with her.
I'm feeling a little sad that the summer is wrapping up. We're going to head to my fertile best friend's cottage next Friday so we can get one last relaxing weekend in. I really hope that I feel well enough to kayak. I don't think that swimming is in the cards for me, but I need some sort of water sport!
I have a feeling that the first couple of weeks of school are going to take a lot out of me. I'm so glad that the first two weeks are short weeks and the third week of school I have an appointment with my Napro doctor so I'll take that entire day off. I'm so glad that I bought a rolling stool for my room! I rolled around the room to test it out today and I think that it's going to work quite well.
It's not even 9pm and I'm going to get ready for bed. I don't think there's going to be any late night TV for me tonight!
I love returning to my classroom after the summer vacation. The caretakers emptied it and polished and waxed the floors. I only wish that my floor could stay that shiny all year round!
I had three former students that are about to start the 10th grade help me out. These girls were stellar as students and they were an incredible help. I have one bulletin board up, all of my groups set up and they distributed all of the school supplies that I'm giving out (pencil, eraser, glue stick and homework folder). They also labelled duotangs and helped me sort through some books. It was great to have them lift things for me. Primary sized desks are pretty light, but I really didn't want to strain myself unnecessarily.
It was great to hang out with the three of them. The girls caught me up on all of the gossip and one of them said that she learned so much from my class. They also mentioned that they were pretty upset at their grade 7 and 8 teacher (she was the one on my old staff that ALWAYS talked about being pregnant, see this if you want a refresher) because she didn't prepare them for high school. I tried to hide my delight at what the girls were saying, but I felt such joy at hearing their complaints. I guess I should be pretty flattered that the girls sought me out to ask if they could help me. They do have to complete 40 hours of community service hours in order to graduate, so we were helping one another out, but it was truly a pleasure to be with them today.
By the end of the day my incision was really starting to hurt. I did buy a knock off B.ella B.and, but it still doesn't provide enough holding power. I think that I'm going to have to buy a support from e.Bay since I can't seem to find one anywhere near my house. I even checked the local hospital pharmacy and it didn't carry anything!
Btw, my workshop went really well yesterday. The attendance was higher than anticipated and according to the feedback forms, we did really well. I had to rush through the portions I was responsible for because we were low on time. I think that if we do the workshop again that we're going to need two days. We didn't have a lot of hands on time and I know from experience that I would appreciate doing stuff rather than listening! My former teaching partner was annoying as usual. She was the only one that didn't speak French! The workshop was called, "Welcome to French Immersion." She's so dumb. I'm so glad that I don't have to work with her.
I'm feeling a little sad that the summer is wrapping up. We're going to head to my fertile best friend's cottage next Friday so we can get one last relaxing weekend in. I really hope that I feel well enough to kayak. I don't think that swimming is in the cards for me, but I need some sort of water sport!
I have a feeling that the first couple of weeks of school are going to take a lot out of me. I'm so glad that the first two weeks are short weeks and the third week of school I have an appointment with my Napro doctor so I'll take that entire day off. I'm so glad that I bought a rolling stool for my room! I rolled around the room to test it out today and I think that it's going to work quite well.
It's not even 9pm and I'm going to get ready for bed. I don't think there's going to be any late night TV for me tonight!
25 August 2009
Three
I'm feeling a little pressure to get my act together.
I'm three weeks post-op and feeling pretty good. I even made potato and leek soup yesterday (with Mr. JB peeling the potatoes)! I even drove myself to the naturopath today.
I don't know if it has to do with recovery or just laziness, but I have no desire to even think about going back to work. It doesn't help that I have to help give a workshop tomorrow. I really shouldn't worry since I'm talking about teaching grade one French immersion. I'm responsible for talking about the Math, Religion and Family Life curricula. I don't really stress out about all things teaching, especially since the three things that I have to talk about have really good teacher manuals.
I'm starting to feel a little bit anxious about going back to work. Although my energy levels have steadily been improving, I'm worried that I may be overdoing it. By September 8th I will be 5 weeks post-op. I bought a stool with wheels from I.kea last week so I don't have to walk between the groups of kids. I also know that if I'm subdued that the kids will be as well. Perhaps it will be a blessing in disguise that I'm going to be a little low on energy! I'm thinking that I may have to take some sick days in order to cope with the transition.
Then again, when I took the almost two weeks off for my last surgery I felt like I was going to lose my mind! Maybe being with the kiddies will help with my recovery. I do have to admit that I am starting to get excited about the new school year, I just have to get back into work mode.
I am noticing a few good things since my surgery. I haven't started back on the supplements that my naturopath prescribed me and I've been feeling pretty good. The biggest improvement is my digestion. I suspect that a lot of my colitis issues were going to be resolved with my surgery, and I have noticed such a difference. I even made my potato and leek soup with butter yesterday and I felt fine! I didn't even take any digestive enzymes!
My naturopath and I talked about her plans for my treatment once I get my period. She wants to continue with the liver cleanse that she put me on since I was on pretty heavy duty medications in the hospital. I don't think that I've ever been that drugged in my entire life! Before surgery I would only take painkillers when absolutely necessary. I haven't taken any of the prescription stuff in a while, but I have had to take A.dvil here and there. So Dr. A wants me to take flax seed and Evening Primrose Oil to help with egg development and my uterine lining.
I never thought that I would ever think this, but I can't wait until I get my period! I don't think that I've ever anticipated my period this much since before I started puberty! It will be interesting to see how much pain I will have. And yes, there's that TTC business that we can start...
One last thing: my massage therapist told me about a new organic grocery store not too far from my house and we went yesterday. I was like a kid in a candy store! There were so many gluten-free products! I even got gluten-free cinnamon buns! It wasn't cheap, but I got so many things that I could eat. It was cheaper than our local organic market and their selection was incredible. Not as great as the grocery store that Living Advent and I went to, but pretty close!
p.s. I've been searching high and low for some sort of compression bandage that I can put on my incision. I found something at the pharmacy where I picked up my last dose of L.upron, but I assumed (wrong) that I could find something at one of my local pharmacies. My mom brought me some supportive underwear, but it still doesn't have enough support. Do any of you have any advice of what I can use? I think that I may invest in a B.ella B.and, but I'm not feeling too happy about going to a maternity store to get one.
I'm three weeks post-op and feeling pretty good. I even made potato and leek soup yesterday (with Mr. JB peeling the potatoes)! I even drove myself to the naturopath today.
I don't know if it has to do with recovery or just laziness, but I have no desire to even think about going back to work. It doesn't help that I have to help give a workshop tomorrow. I really shouldn't worry since I'm talking about teaching grade one French immersion. I'm responsible for talking about the Math, Religion and Family Life curricula. I don't really stress out about all things teaching, especially since the three things that I have to talk about have really good teacher manuals.
I'm starting to feel a little bit anxious about going back to work. Although my energy levels have steadily been improving, I'm worried that I may be overdoing it. By September 8th I will be 5 weeks post-op. I bought a stool with wheels from I.kea last week so I don't have to walk between the groups of kids. I also know that if I'm subdued that the kids will be as well. Perhaps it will be a blessing in disguise that I'm going to be a little low on energy! I'm thinking that I may have to take some sick days in order to cope with the transition.
Then again, when I took the almost two weeks off for my last surgery I felt like I was going to lose my mind! Maybe being with the kiddies will help with my recovery. I do have to admit that I am starting to get excited about the new school year, I just have to get back into work mode.
I am noticing a few good things since my surgery. I haven't started back on the supplements that my naturopath prescribed me and I've been feeling pretty good. The biggest improvement is my digestion. I suspect that a lot of my colitis issues were going to be resolved with my surgery, and I have noticed such a difference. I even made my potato and leek soup with butter yesterday and I felt fine! I didn't even take any digestive enzymes!
My naturopath and I talked about her plans for my treatment once I get my period. She wants to continue with the liver cleanse that she put me on since I was on pretty heavy duty medications in the hospital. I don't think that I've ever been that drugged in my entire life! Before surgery I would only take painkillers when absolutely necessary. I haven't taken any of the prescription stuff in a while, but I have had to take A.dvil here and there. So Dr. A wants me to take flax seed and Evening Primrose Oil to help with egg development and my uterine lining.
I never thought that I would ever think this, but I can't wait until I get my period! I don't think that I've ever anticipated my period this much since before I started puberty! It will be interesting to see how much pain I will have. And yes, there's that TTC business that we can start...
One last thing: my massage therapist told me about a new organic grocery store not too far from my house and we went yesterday. I was like a kid in a candy store! There were so many gluten-free products! I even got gluten-free cinnamon buns! It wasn't cheap, but I got so many things that I could eat. It was cheaper than our local organic market and their selection was incredible. Not as great as the grocery store that Living Advent and I went to, but pretty close!
p.s. I've been searching high and low for some sort of compression bandage that I can put on my incision. I found something at the pharmacy where I picked up my last dose of L.upron, but I assumed (wrong) that I could find something at one of my local pharmacies. My mom brought me some supportive underwear, but it still doesn't have enough support. Do any of you have any advice of what I can use? I think that I may invest in a B.ella B.and, but I'm not feeling too happy about going to a maternity store to get one.
21 August 2009
Yet another reason why I'm gluten-free
I think that I had a good day.
Great, in fact.
I went to the doctor and despite the 45 minute wait in the craziest waiting room in the Greater Toronto Area, I had a great post-op visit. I got my last L.upron shot and it was virtually painless -- yet another reason why my doctor rocks!!! I should get my first period in about six to eight weeks. My doc wants to see me after my first period and he seems 100% confident that we will be able to conceive. He even gave me a prescription for prenatal vitamins! I'm definitely on my way!
I spent the afternoon hanging out in one of my work friend's backyard. The two other grade one teachers and the former grade four teacher (who is now my neighbour) chatted the afternoon away. Don't worry we didn't talk about work too much! She has the most gorgeous home and an even more beautiful yard. We sat under her covered patio and snacked and listened to the waterfall falling into her swimming pool. It was the perfect afternoon with fantastic company.
Unfortunately silly me was tempted by the delicious bruschetta. She had some rice chips and veggies to snack on so it wasn't like I was starving. But then she brought out the tasty bruschetta and I couldn't resist.
By the time that we left around dinner time I had the makings of a migraine starting. When my friend dropped me off I could feel the pain that I know all too well. Mr. JB got the A.dvil and he massaged my head a bit and I proceeded to sleep for four hours straight. I didn't have dinner and Mr. JB ended up hanging out in the new basement so I could rest on the living room couch. When I woke up around midnight (which explains why I'm posting at 1am!) I was hungry and kinda uncomfortable since I fell asleep in my clothes.
When I woke up I tried to figure out where the heck the migraine came from. It was the same kind of migraine that I get when I eat something with eggs (one of my most severe allergies). The only trigger that I could think of was the piece of bread that I had this afternoon. I didn't finish the entire piece of bruschetta and I still suffered!
I will never be tempted by regular bread again!
I better get to bed. I'm meeting LifeHopes for lunch tomorrow! I've found a gluten-free bakery close to the restaurant that I found. I'm so excited!
p.s. The last dose of L.upron was only a fraction of the cost of the big needle. It was only $436, not like the $1202 I spent on the last one. Thank God for insurance!!
Great, in fact.
I went to the doctor and despite the 45 minute wait in the craziest waiting room in the Greater Toronto Area, I had a great post-op visit. I got my last L.upron shot and it was virtually painless -- yet another reason why my doctor rocks!!! I should get my first period in about six to eight weeks. My doc wants to see me after my first period and he seems 100% confident that we will be able to conceive. He even gave me a prescription for prenatal vitamins! I'm definitely on my way!
I spent the afternoon hanging out in one of my work friend's backyard. The two other grade one teachers and the former grade four teacher (who is now my neighbour) chatted the afternoon away. Don't worry we didn't talk about work too much! She has the most gorgeous home and an even more beautiful yard. We sat under her covered patio and snacked and listened to the waterfall falling into her swimming pool. It was the perfect afternoon with fantastic company.
Unfortunately silly me was tempted by the delicious bruschetta. She had some rice chips and veggies to snack on so it wasn't like I was starving. But then she brought out the tasty bruschetta and I couldn't resist.
By the time that we left around dinner time I had the makings of a migraine starting. When my friend dropped me off I could feel the pain that I know all too well. Mr. JB got the A.dvil and he massaged my head a bit and I proceeded to sleep for four hours straight. I didn't have dinner and Mr. JB ended up hanging out in the new basement so I could rest on the living room couch. When I woke up around midnight (which explains why I'm posting at 1am!) I was hungry and kinda uncomfortable since I fell asleep in my clothes.
When I woke up I tried to figure out where the heck the migraine came from. It was the same kind of migraine that I get when I eat something with eggs (one of my most severe allergies). The only trigger that I could think of was the piece of bread that I had this afternoon. I didn't finish the entire piece of bruschetta and I still suffered!
I will never be tempted by regular bread again!
I better get to bed. I'm meeting LifeHopes for lunch tomorrow! I've found a gluten-free bakery close to the restaurant that I found. I'm so excited!
p.s. The last dose of L.upron was only a fraction of the cost of the big needle. It was only $436, not like the $1202 I spent on the last one. Thank God for insurance!!
20 August 2009
Sixteen
So I'm sixteen days post-op and I'm pretty surprised at how good I'm feeling.
Well, let me qualify that.
I went to the movies yesterday (you have to see the T.ime T.raveler's W.ife!!!!). It is one of my favourite books and I was so happy with the movie adaptation. The last time I read the book I blogged about it here. It seems as though the two movies that I have seen in the recent past have both dealt with infertility. Both of the books were a little more overt, but the themes were there nonetheless.
So after the movies my girlfriend and I did a little shopping. She just bought a house in my neighbourhood and she's all excited about finding furniture and I was more than happy to go with her on her hunt. There's only so much lying around a girl can do! I was out for almost five hours and I didn't collapse in a heap on the couch when I got home.
My mom came over today to help me reorganize the linen closet. It was an absolute disaster and I knew that she would enjoy the project. My mother is more than a little compulsive when it comes to her linens. The lady irons her pillow cases and sheets for goodness sake! She also irons my dad's underwear and their tea towels. But that is besides the point. I was pretty pooped after the linen closet was finished and I spent most of the afternoon snoozing on the couch while she ironed Mr. JB's shirts for school. I wish that I inherited her love of ironing, but she is happiest when she's pressing clothes!
So tomorrow we're heading into the city to see my surgeon. I'm getting the last dose of L.upron which thankfully will only be a fraction of the cost of the last needle. I really hope that it doesn't hurt as much as the last one! I'm really curious to talk to my doctor more in depth about my surgery. My incision has not been as painful since I started the castor oil packs on Monday. I really hope that the packs will help with the scarring.
One last thing: We had some crazy weather tonight! At around 6pm we got some tornado warnings north of where we live. Apparently one person died because of the tornado! When the warning changed and included our city Mr. JB and I headed down to the basement. I couldn't believe how hard the rain was coming down and the lightning was nuts! I am so glad that the bad weather passed us by. I have no idea how people live in areas where tornadoes are common!
Well, let me qualify that.
I went to the movies yesterday (you have to see the T.ime T.raveler's W.ife!!!!). It is one of my favourite books and I was so happy with the movie adaptation. The last time I read the book I blogged about it here. It seems as though the two movies that I have seen in the recent past have both dealt with infertility. Both of the books were a little more overt, but the themes were there nonetheless.
So after the movies my girlfriend and I did a little shopping. She just bought a house in my neighbourhood and she's all excited about finding furniture and I was more than happy to go with her on her hunt. There's only so much lying around a girl can do! I was out for almost five hours and I didn't collapse in a heap on the couch when I got home.
My mom came over today to help me reorganize the linen closet. It was an absolute disaster and I knew that she would enjoy the project. My mother is more than a little compulsive when it comes to her linens. The lady irons her pillow cases and sheets for goodness sake! She also irons my dad's underwear and their tea towels. But that is besides the point. I was pretty pooped after the linen closet was finished and I spent most of the afternoon snoozing on the couch while she ironed Mr. JB's shirts for school. I wish that I inherited her love of ironing, but she is happiest when she's pressing clothes!
So tomorrow we're heading into the city to see my surgeon. I'm getting the last dose of L.upron which thankfully will only be a fraction of the cost of the last needle. I really hope that it doesn't hurt as much as the last one! I'm really curious to talk to my doctor more in depth about my surgery. My incision has not been as painful since I started the castor oil packs on Monday. I really hope that the packs will help with the scarring.
One last thing: We had some crazy weather tonight! At around 6pm we got some tornado warnings north of where we live. Apparently one person died because of the tornado! When the warning changed and included our city Mr. JB and I headed down to the basement. I couldn't believe how hard the rain was coming down and the lightning was nuts! I am so glad that the bad weather passed us by. I have no idea how people live in areas where tornadoes are common!
16 August 2009
My "Busy" Life
If look really carefully you can see that I got a manicure yesterday. It was a pretty big deal since I had an 11:30am appointment at the nail salon! The lady that prettied up my hands and feet talked me into getting a flower design on my big toes. I'm a pretty low-fi kinda girl so the flowers are quite hilarious, but she did a really good job.
Our travel buddies from last summer came by and dropped off some JellyBelly friendly foods. We are so blessed to have such good friends! My friend J, had a laparotomy when she was 16 to remove endo, cysts and adhesions. I didn't know until I e-mailed her after she announced her pregnancy. She was quite surprised that they didn't have to try for longer since she had so much difficulty so early in her life. It's been great to have her support through the surgery and I absolutely love her cooking!
So yesterday afternoon Mr. JB and I decided to go to the movies. I've been feeling a little cabin fever and I convinced my hubs to see Julie & Julia. I finished J.ulie P.owell's book last week and I was pretty excited to get out. Being someone that absolutely loves eating, especially French food, I thought the movie was great. There was a very touching scene where Julia finds out that her newly married sister was expecting. J.ulia child didn't get married until she was 34 and she never had any children. It was obvious during the early scenes of the movie that she did want to be a mother, but it just didn't happen. My eyes brimmed with tears as J.ulia started to cry about how happy she was for her sister.
The one thing that bothered me about the movie is that they didn't mention J.ulie P.owell's PCOS. Her book starts out with her talking about her "condition" but there wasn't any mention of it. As far as I know she still is childless (at least that's what I came up with when I did my internet search). I guess the modern-day IF slant wasn't catchy in the focus groups!
So I haven't left the house today. I did feel quite guilty this morning about not going to mass. It's our month to usher and I just can't handle all of the standing and sitting. My BIL made a joke about how if I could go to the movies that I could go to church. I totally took it the wrong way and I was quite upset. Mr. JB felt very guilty that he even mentioned it to me since I've been uber-sensitive lately. I was hoping that my BIL would just come over and say mass, but he had just gotten home from NYC and he was exhausted.
God understands, right?
So we're off to my fertile best friend's place for our annual K.entucky F.ried C.hicken dinner. Mr. JB and S look forward to it every year. I have to admit that the grease grosses me out, but we do this once a summer. I convinced Mr. JB to get some corn so at least there will be something healthy on the table!
I wonder now that the endo is all gone if my tummy will behave. I did have some of Mr. JB's nachos and cheese at the movies yesterday and it didn't bother me one bit! I guess if the K.FC doesn't have me running to the bathroom, I'll have part of my answer!
14 August 2009
Small victories
So I've been home for a week and I was brave enough to go out and do some stuff today.
I did take a lot longer than I thought to get the gumption to get dressed and off of the couch, but I didn't take any pain meds before we left.
So here was my big afternoon:
1) Went to the drug store to get some face lotion with SPF. My almost full bottle went MIA somewhere between my trip south and my stay at the hospital.
2) Went to the library to return books and pick up some new ones. I had to wait a ridiculously long time to check out because the woman ahead of us was insisting that she did not take out a DVD that was overdue on her account. Yeah right lady!
3) Went to S.tarbucks for a treat. I thought that I would be able to get out of the car and order for myself, but I sent Mr. JB in without me. I was just too tired and hot after accomplishing #1 and #2.
So tomorrow I'm going for a mani/pedi. I have a gift certificate from a former student that expired at the end of June, but the nice lady at the salon said that she would honour it. I'm in definite need of some pampering!
I'm excited 'cos My Reality is coming over to watch girlie movies with me. Mr. JB has been fun to hang out with, but he'd rather watch sports.
Oh yeah, I've only taken pain meds once today. Woohoo!
I did take a lot longer than I thought to get the gumption to get dressed and off of the couch, but I didn't take any pain meds before we left.
So here was my big afternoon:
1) Went to the drug store to get some face lotion with SPF. My almost full bottle went MIA somewhere between my trip south and my stay at the hospital.
2) Went to the library to return books and pick up some new ones. I had to wait a ridiculously long time to check out because the woman ahead of us was insisting that she did not take out a DVD that was overdue on her account. Yeah right lady!
3) Went to S.tarbucks for a treat. I thought that I would be able to get out of the car and order for myself, but I sent Mr. JB in without me. I was just too tired and hot after accomplishing #1 and #2.
So tomorrow I'm going for a mani/pedi. I have a gift certificate from a former student that expired at the end of June, but the nice lady at the salon said that she would honour it. I'm in definite need of some pampering!
I'm excited 'cos My Reality is coming over to watch girlie movies with me. Mr. JB has been fun to hang out with, but he'd rather watch sports.
Oh yeah, I've only taken pain meds once today. Woohoo!
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