5 March 2009

And the suckitude continues....

It's CD3 and I feel like total and utter crapola. My cramps were so bad this morning that at 5am I was in so much pain that I felt like I had to throw up. It took 3 extra strength ibuprophen to get me out of the door and to school. I've tried to stay seated as much as possible with the kiddies this morning, but it is proving difficult. 

I can't wait until April 7th. 

I said to Mr. JB this morning to remind me when I'm healing from surgery about the pain that I felt this morning. It was almost crippling. 

 I get to up my dose of C.lomid this month for one last ditch attempt to get knocked up before my surgery. I had another 15-day long luteal phase this past month and no brown bleeding or spotting. So things are looking up.

I really hope that my cramps feel better by this afternoon. I really want to go to yoga, but if I feel like this I'm going to go home and lie underneath my heating pad and sleep. The only time I don't feel pain is when I'm sleeping. 

This sucks. 

I'm so tired of feeling sorry for myself! 


  1. I too am tired of hearing myself complain.

    Can't wait for you to get your surgery. it sounds an awful lot like endo to me, and if they remove it, you'll be a new person.

  2. I'm just getting caught up on your blog. I'm so sorry that you're going through so much pain and yeast infection, etc. IF really does suck! Hang in there, April 7th is just around the corner. You're in my prayers. Blessings, LA

  3. Sending you lots of hugs. Being in pain makes everything seem that much worse. I sincerely hope that your cramps vanish!

  4. You're in my thoughts and prayers.

    I know how you feel. I can relate totally to your post. I'm currently on day 3 of my cycle. I've been suffering from major cramps and headaches all three days so far.

    I was diagnosed with severe endometriosis stage 4 last February 12th 2008 after surgery to remove two ovarian cysts, which turned out to be endometriomas.

    This past week I was sent to a new surgeon (an endo expert) about the possibility of more surgery. They are supposed to call me soon with a surgery date. They told me though last week that the surgery will be possibly scheduled in April.

    I can't wait for my second surgery to remove all this endo, cysts, and adhesians! Hopefully then all this pain will go away and we will have a better chance of being able to conceive a child!

    You are in my thoughts and prayers for a successful surgery AND to be blessed with children!

    P.S. My beloved Nana's birthday is on April 7th. I will ask her to pray and intercede for you to God. She is in heaven with Him now.

    May God Bless you.

    Maria Therese