So I was feeling sorry for myself this morning at mass. I was looking around at all the beautiful little kids, mainly the kids that have been born since we got married, and I felt so sad.
Don't get me wrong, I love Advent. I love Christmas. Our parish is so beautiful and it is so easy to feel the spirit of the season.
But this morning as I sat in the pew, I just felt sad. I wanted to be like Mary. I want to have a life growing inside of me. I was so tired of being an infertile woman. So very, very tired.
And then during the gospel it hit me like a ton of bricks:
And behold, Elizabeth, your relative, has also conceived a son in her old age, and this is the sixth month for her who was called barren; for nothing is impossible with God.
For nothing is impossible with God.
When I heard the words read aloud the doubt and feel-me-sorries disappeared. It was like the Holy Spirit was talking directly to me.
"Wake up JellyBelly, I'm here. I've lead you this far, just be patient."
Our journey, particularly our journey to Omaha, was filled with so many blessings. I have been able to stay home knowing that I have a job to return to (not that I ever want to return to work, but that's another post for another time). I have been able to let myself rest and relax, two things that I have a hard time doing.
For nothing is impossible with God.
I have said to myself over and over today. I may have to get a t-shirt made or a billboard-sized sign for my house.
Thank you for getting through my thick skull Lord, I needed it.
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I was sitting at church myself feeling sad about my recent loss and then I heard those words and they spoke straight to my heart. We have a miracle baby who is living proof of these words and I believe your miracle is on its way to you too. Many blessings in 2012 to you and your husband. I enjoy reading your blog and I can't wait for the day when your happy ending comes!
That's right. Just hang in there a little longer...
I was thinking about those powerful words as well when the Gospel was read. NOTHING is impossible with God....so, so true!
What a perfect reflection on today's readings. Praying for you JB, God has SO MUCH in store for you!
I felt a similar jolt today as I realized it was the same reading that we heard at the Feast of the Immaculate Conception. Apparently, I needed to understand this amazing wisdom TWICE during this "waiting" season. For truly, nothing is impossible with God. Praying for you.
This passage sustained me SO much during my years of infertility because it was actually about infertility!! Yes, we can relate everything to infertility (just as this passage can be related to other issues as well), but this is literally about a barren woman being healed and conceiving! So awesome. Hang in there, JB! Everything is possible with God!
I was thinking about that at Mass yesterday, too! Balm to this IF girl's heart. :)
Yes, I have been thinking about that line for a week, and it still made me cry at mass when it was read aloud.
That verse stuck out to me this year too. For so many years I only "heard" the part about Mary, and yet this wonderful Christmas reading directly acknowledges the sacrifices and sufferings of those with infertility and the joy of answered prayer. How awesome.
Praying for you!
THE BEST scripture for infertility!
Trusting God. He will provide!
Keeping faith is what sometimes keeps us sane. I didn't make it to mass yesterday due to a fibro flare but its nice to see you post a bit of it and it gives me hope too.
A beautiful reflection!! And a beautiful reminder!! Don't you forget that God lead y'all down this path for a reason! Hold on to that hope you felt and keep trusting him...especially in the not so great times!
Praying for you sweet friend!
I love that Gospel reading. I love that it's there because of a barren woman! It could have been used anywhere else... so I was feeling hopeful at Mass yesterday too. We'll keep praying that 2012 is our year!! :) Hugs!!
I like that passage myself...if it's God's will for us...it will happen. If not...He'll give us the tools to cope and find what He does want for us. Right?
I love when a sign from God just kinda smacks you between the eyes!
LOVE THIS!!!
Continue to meditate on this. God has WONDERFUL things in store for you.
Great reflection on a wonderful passage.
We need to design a t-shirt for this community that says just this! Hang in there, JB. Your time is coming!
I had to hear this. I had to hear that you have not lost hope, and that God can work a miracle in your life, especially now.
Because I'm all out of steam. I'm all out of meds. I'm all out of surgeries, injections, pills, and Dr appts.
But one thing I'm still waiting for is you... if YOU can conceive with the Lord's help... well, maybe, just maybe, there will be another miracle left for me.
Thanks for the reminder. Love ya!
:) Such a healing verse. Glad you are feeling hopeful...I am very hopeful for you as well! Napro surgery is so healing.
I teared up when the priest read those words. Truer words were never spoken!
What a perfect reminder - if we could just keep telling ourselves that 100 times per day, we would never need t worry again. You are on your way there my friend, he is setting you up, as we speak. Xoxoxox
As always, I'm in admiration of your faith, it must feel amazing.
thinking of you!
That passage really hit me too. In fact, my husband nudged me when it was read. I'm very sorry, sweet girl you're sad.
Wow. I love it when that happens. It's amazing how the God speaks to us. Thanks for posting that.
Wow! Awesome post!
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