17 March 2010

There's always next month....

Okay, so I did get my hopes up.

I'm convinced that my hormone levels were better since I had boob tenderness and I got pimples for the first time since before my first surgery (when I was on HCG and C.lomid).

That's positive, right?

But just like two years ago when we were AZ last, AF came to visit.

I was hoping and praying that this would be the cycle.

But it wasn't to be.

Then again, I am on super-strong antibiotics that I shouldn't get pg on (my GP had her receptionist call me last week to remind me that I shouldn't, I almost laughed then I thought how ironic it would be if I did!). I also think that there may be something else wrong with me since I'm still feeling pain when I pee.

Great, yet another thing to investigate!

Geez ladyparts, can you give me a freaking break here???

Anyhow, I almost wasn't disappointed. Call it woman's intuition, but I knew I was alone in my body. It's not like I know what it feels to be pg, but I think that I would know (I'm also convinced that I haven't been "alone" before, but that's just a hunch, I have no tangible proof).

So I can have a drink or two at our St. Patty's celebration tomorrow and not feel worried. Who knows, I may or may not, I haven't decided.

At least I'm somewhere that's far from home with plenty to distract me, right? The weather has been beautiful and I lay in the sun today reading a book. Life could be much worse!

p.s. My fertile best friend gave birth to her third child yesterday. Yet another blessing in disguise to be far, far away from home. Btw, he was 8 lbs 12 oz! Holy moly!

p.p.s. I had my first coffee drink in EIGHT years today! I went to S.tarbucks with Mr. JB and his family and I had a soy i.ced c.aramel ma.cchiato and it was DELICIOUS!!! I did feel jittery afterwards so I don't think that I'll make a habit of having them, but as a treat once in a while, at least I have the option!


  1. Sorry sbout CD1. I hope the sunny skies dampen the blow a little bit on this one!

  2. Stupid CD1. But yes, there's always next month. Have you had your hubby checked out? I can't remember. I'm convinced my hubby was actually a bigger piece of the puzzle than me, but I don't know your situation. Have a few drinks and enjoy your vaca!

  3. sorry about cd1, esp on vacation. I hope you get your "ladyparts' sorted out, like you said getting pg with an existing infections wouldnt' be any good for you or baby. here's to next month.

  4. I have a coffee every once and a while, but starbucks coffee makes me super JITTERY and ANXIOUS!!! if I do have one (and its a real treat) I go to second cup :) I don't think they have those in AZ though do they?

    Sorry about CD1 :(

  5. I'm sorry to hear that another cycle has come and gone. *sigh* But I'm so glad that you're having a wonderful time on vacation - enjoy every minute! :)

  6. Sorry about cd1 :(. Glad to hear you're having a good time on vacation, though. Have a great St. Patrick's Day!

  7. I am sorry. I am sure my comment didn't help, but I was just that hopeful for you. I do think, as you say, it is still an excellent sign your hormones are in the right place. and like you said, now you can enjoy caffeine and a few adult beverages and just enjoy the trip with dh. You are on the right path. But please do accept my apologies for adding to the letdown-I should know better to keep my mouth shut just in case!

  8. Oh hon, I am so sorry. Please enjoy your vaca and those starbucks drinks!!

    That is the blessing and the curse of IF, there is always next month.

  9. Oh boo! I had my hopes up for you too. I was hoping for an extra special bonus happiness on the Arizona trip. Alas! I hope you can enjoy the sunny skies ... and lift a toast to St. Patrick!

  10. I hardly ever get Starbucks, cause caffeine makes me soooo wired, but I love the smell in there. And the cupcakes!

  11. Hi, Sorry about cd1. I'll be there soon myself and the depression is on its way! I know what it is like to have that feeling that your not "alone" in your body. That's a good way to put it. But like you no way to prove it. Never been officially pg either.

  12. Hope you are enjoying AZ as much as possible.
    Funny, some months I knew that there was nothing, and some months I was convinced that there was life there with me (now I Know that it was possible that egg and sperm were meeting, making embryos just to die in the UOD)...