Okay girls, I'm in a pickle.
My fertile best friend gave birth to her third (her second child since I've been married) while we were away. I didn't phone her when we got in since I was too busy dealing with a migraine and then I didn't phone yesterday since I had a migraine hang-over.
I called today and thankfully no one answered and I left a message -- she NEVER checks her messages so I'm pretty safe.
I really have no desire to see this baby.
I can't deal with newborns. Especially, the newborn of someone who is so fertile.
I've had nine months to deal with this, I didn't expect to have such a strong reaction.
I did buy the baby (and the other two kids) presents while we were away. I resented having to buy yet another baby present.
I can't help it, I'm human and incredibly jealous.
I just keep on going back to her complaining a few months ago that she wasn't sure if she could handle having another baby (the middle child is about to turn four). I didn't know whether or not to kick her or cry when she said this. Btw, I was sitting beside her.
I know that we all have our crosses to bear. And I don't envy their financial position -- she's the friend who really can't afford to have another child according to the credit card bill that I accidentally saw (really, it was on the kitchen counter while I was making tea, it was unavoidable!). I also know that the birth of this child will plummet her already chaotic house into more chaos.
But, at the bottom of it all, she's my best friend.
She has been with me through so much since we became friends in 1994. And she lives around the corner, I can hide for only so long.
What do I do girls? Help!