I went to dinner with my former colleagues on Friday night. One of the girls had her newborn with her and I couldn't even look at the baby. I had an even harder time pretending that all was well and that my friend, who decided after six years of marriage and constant assertions that she was too selfish to be a mom, got pregnant soon after she started TTC.
I guess that the bitterness that has been masked by all of my recent health issues is not too far from the surface.
Babies are hard to take, especially newborns. I don't have the same feelings around older kids.
Still praying for Aunt Flo to show up. I would really like her to arrive so we can get this show on the road!
Then again, we've been trying for four years and three months, what's another couple of weeks?