Dear 2011

Dear 2011,

Hi! It's really nice to meet you and I am really looking forward to getting to know you better.

2010 was an interesting year. When I think back it was a year of spinning my wheels. Nothing really happened and all I did was wait more, not something I really wanted to do. My body has healed nicely from the surgery that I had in 2009 and I was ready to move forward. Unfortunately, it was more of the same in IF-land.


It wasn't until November when things got a little interesting. I started to see Dr. Nora and I have been feeling so good since starting my new treatment regimen. It is a bit of a pain to have to drive to the city to see her, but I feel like I'm back to the pre-surgery me. I just wish that all of the supplements didn't cost so darned much!

The end of December was great. Not only did we have a couple weeks of vacation, but now I have new perfectly seeing eyes! I think that there will be many new sunglass adventures in my future! Although the recovery was a lot more painful than I had anticipated, it definitely was worth it. AND I got caught up on my sleep while letting my eyes heal. A win-win situation in my opinion.

So 2011, part of me is excited and the other is cautious. I would really like to be a mom this year (well, I've wanted to be a mom since 2005, but come on, this is getting ridiculous!). I have to swallow my fears and I have to push forward into the world of adoption. A baby from overseas is not going to come to me on its own! I am so scared to start the process because I'm tired of being out of control. Then again, I thought that I was the boss of my body, but we know how that has worked out.

I'm also trying not to think about turning 36 in a few weeks. I honestly thought that I would've been a mom by now. Although I'm not feeling all tired and run down anymore,  I still don't want to be OLD when I become a mother for the first time.

I've also decided that I'm done taking it easy and I am going to get back on the fitness wagon. I know that I have to ease into being fit JellyBelly, but I no longer want to be flabby! Whoever told me that one's metabolism changes after 30 was right! Mr. JB and I are going to do a workout (that I can't recall the name of) that doesn't require equipment and I'm going to step up my yoga schedule. No more easy classes for me! We're planning on going to a resort for March Break and I want to be fit for the beach!

So 2011, please be gentle with me. It's a new decade and a new start. I so want my dreams of a family to come true this year.

Please don't disappoint.

Love,
JellyBelly

p.s. I also promise to clean out the room of shame. That project totally got sidetracked. Now that I'm not suffering from adrenal fatigue I have the energy to finally do it!