17 January 2011

I hate you Facebook

I've been atomically lapped, twice over.

My friends J and M are expecting their second in June. They met after us, got married a year after us and now will have two children before we even conceive one.

I hate being barren. I would've gladly given up the trip to the mall after school as well as the new yoga clothes for a baby. I'd give up my disposable income and even trips to the spa.

I'm tired of being left behind.

Prayers please! I wish this didn't bother me as much as it does, but it hurts, a lot.

26 comments:

  1. I really wish that did not happen to you today, facebook is not cool and most of the time its downright hurtful. I know you would give up all those things for a baby, and I know you would be the BEST at raising a baby. I will pray for you, I promise.....I always do, but I will pray harder.

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  2. I am so sorry- Yes, FB can be a tad bit of "bragging". Prayers coming your way!

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  3. I've been there. Yup. The year we stopped trying to get pregnant, a friend had twins and two others had babies, all using Clomid, which I had tried too. Sheesh. I've been in that pit, and I dug out, and so will you.

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  4. I'm sorry JB! I know you would give EVERYTHING to have a child.

    I hate feeling left behind too!

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  5. Total drag, man. I know logically we know it's not a race, but sometimes it feels like it, right? Hugs.

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  6. I so know that awful feeling. I am sorry, I am thinking of and praying for you.

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  7. Amen sister. That sucks. I noticed the other day that DH's ex (who's married to an old friend of mine) is on #2 (#1's not even 1 yet) and I just though, hmm if you had married her you'd be on kid #2 by now. Sucks.

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  8. Oh JB, I am sorry...yes prayers coming!! Hugs and prayers for you!

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  9. Hugs Hun. Fb Is the worst.

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  10. The same thing happened to me too, Except it was three couples expecting their second...I know in about 8 months they'll announce they're expecting their thirds....they all like them 2 years apart. I'll keep you in my prayers, I know how hard this is!

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  11. :( I'm sorry. Praying for you!

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  12. Ugh. I'm so sorry! I'm praying for you!

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  13. I know, I just hate that! I'm sorry, Hugs!

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  14. I am sorry! Your in my prayers especially today!!!

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  15. Few things sting as bad as the atomic lap. I'm so sorry and am praying for you.

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  16. So sorry! Being lapped sucks. Praying for you!

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  17. Ugh, it definitely hurts. I'm getting lapped by my younger (like 10 years) cousins right and left and it does SUCK.
    So sorry :(.

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  18. Oh dear, I can completely relate. :( I am so sad for you right now - I'll be praying for you. Love you girl!!! Sending hugs your way!!!

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  19. I'm so sorry. The agony is so hurtful. I wish I could see you to make you smile today. Hugs

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  20. Yeah, it sucks..sending lots of big hugs!

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  21. FB blows. 'Nuff said.

    I'm ss sweetie. Hugs.

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  22. I am so sorry you feel so crummy. Sending you prayers right now.

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  23. Oh JB, I am sooooo sorry. I felt like you a couple weeks ago and am just coming out of my funk. I HATE HATE HATE facebook. It is a constant reminder of all my high school/sorority sisters who all have perfect children and families and pictures to show for it. I am thinking of deleting my account.lol

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  24. Just catching up on your blog;

    I'm so sorry! The atomic lap is the worst, and twice over. I think feeling isolated and left behind is one of the hardest parts of IF. I more easily could come to terms with not having children, but being alone and left behind, that is harder for me.

    Praying for you.

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