I should be resting.
Or doing laundry.
Or putting clothes away in our closet.
Or maybe even having a snack.
Instead, I'm blogging in an attempt to keep a panic attack at bay.
It doesn't help that I have a little summer cold. I started sneezing while we were grocery shopping yesterday and I haven't stopped since. I've increased my vitamin C dose and I got a good night's rest, but the sniffles are getting the best of me.
I know that I'm anxious about the end of school. I've been waking up in the middle of the night with more things to add to my to-do list. Lucky for me, I think that I finally have enough boxes for all of my school stuff (yes girls, I am a school resource pack rat AND I have hardly any school-related stuff at home since I've had a classroom to store it in for nine years!). I had the bright idea of asking some older kids to help out since I know that I can't do it all myself while keeping my class entertained!
Another reason why I'm feeling anxiety is that the first time the bottom feel out, it was the end of the school year. Last year I was so glad to see my class move on since they were NUTS, but this year has been so great that I'm sad to see this class go. I know that I will be teaching half of them again, but the current dynamic of the class is great. I feel such a sense of pride when other teachers say how smart and well-behaved they are!
On Friday we did a rotation with the other grade one classes and my teaching partner said that my class applauded when she finished explaining how to make their craft. One kid even told her that it was a good lesson. What 6 year olds do that???
My teaching partner and I have mixed our two classes really well and I got to keep the kids I really, really like, but I'm worried that the poor behaviour of the other kids is going to ruin the good behaviour of my students. I know it's silly to worry about it since there's no way of telling what my class in September is going to be like, but I can't help it!
So on Friday one of the special ed teachers and I were talking about next year and she made an interesting comment. We were talking about one of the little guys in my class who has a mom that is quite difficult (which is teacher speak for crazy, really, really crazy, she has driven each of her kids' teachers nuts AND I have a suspicion that she has dealt with IF, lucky for me, she likes me and her son is a nice kid).
Mrs. M made a comment that it would drive J's mom crazy if I were to go on maternity leave next year and that it may be the trick to getting pregnant. I didn't know how to respond since I have only discussed my fertility issues with my principal and one other teacher on staff (who dealt with endo before she had kids and now has three adult children and a bunch of grandkids). Nevertheless I thought that it was sweet of her to be encouraging, in a roundabout way.
Lastly, I'm in a bit of a conundrum. In the past couple weeks I've dealt with some really bad migraines and I've traced them back to having received communion! I know that the host is made with wheat, but I don't want to stop receiving. Mr. JB has said that I should just take the wine, but I just don't like not receiving the Eucharist. I have a very friendly relationship with our pastor and I know that he wouldn't have a problem with giving me a tinier portion of the host (which is what my brother-in-law does when we have mass with him), but do any of you know of any wheat-free host options? It would break my heart to have to stop receiving communion and I want to go prepared when I speak to our priest!