1 April 2012

Saying goodbye...

I feel like all I've done in the past few days is say goodbye.

Uncle Jack's funeral was lovely. Mr. JB's brother was able to fly in to celebrate the funeral mass (lucky for us, he had returned from Africa the week before), which everyone in the family appreciated. It was so great to have someone that could tell personal stories during the homily. We've spent a lot of time sharing funny stories about Uncle Jack. As my BIL said, he was larger than life and he will be missed by many.

Yesterday, I attended a going away party for my favourite yoga teacher. He's going on a sabbatical for a year so he can study at a meditation retreat in California. He has become a very good friend and his absence is definitely going to be difficult. His classes are my favourite and every time he says to try something new, I feel like my body is up for the challenge -- not many have that talent! I know that this is a great opportunity for him and that when he returns he will be an even better teacher, but selfishly I wish he didn't have to go.

I am especially worried for my friend, K. I have mentioned before that she has had feelings for G for a long, long time. Feelings that aren't reciprocated. She has told him how she feels about him and he has told her that he does not feel the same way. She organized the going away party yesterday and she had a hard time keeping it together. Please keep her in your prayers, she is very fragile and I'm trying to be supportive, but G's departure is going to be very, very difficult for her.

And lastly, I'm saying goodbye to my Lenten dream of falling pg. AF arrived late yesterday, although I knew that she was on her way (my boobs were no longer sore and I could feel stirrings in my pelvis). I hoped and hoped that our AZ vacation, prayer buddies and Lent would finally bring us our miracle.

Alas, I was disappointed yet again.

I am so blessed to have a husband that is so hopeful. When I told him this morning he said not to worry. He also said that we're lucky to have Uncle Jack in heaven asking the Lord to send us a baby. He was a very determined man, so hopefully he can help speed up the process!

Thank you so much prayer buddy for all of your prayers. I am sure that you have a lot to do with how at peace I feel right now. And for the buddy that I'm praying for, you're getting loads of prayers offered up for you!

Happy Palm Sunday everyone! I can't believe that it's Holy Week already!

14 comments:

  1. I'm sorry to hear of all the losses (of the various kinds) that you have had this past week. I hope that this Holy Week helps to make sense of them and bring you comfort somehow.

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  2. You are strong woman Jellybelly! Just remember that. You are certainly very blessed to have a wonderful/supportive and loving DH! I am sure you will very soon be holding your little bundle of joy! I am sending out this positive affirmation to you...i kept saying to my dh before my surgery that i would like to have us purchase our home b4 my surgery and boom look at that ..it happened. I almost thought probably i would resume the search after I recover. Now i'm moving in less than 2 months from now. What I've learned is to say those positive thoughts out there and hopefully the universe will listen or whoever is out there and provide us both (and other ladies who are ttcing) our wishes to become mommies! Hope to see you at our next meetup! I am finally making it out!. Health is much better!

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  3. Oh, so sorry to hear of AF arriving. :( I was hoping this would be it for you. Big hugs.

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  4. Your blog is a great testimony to God's grace working, even in the unexpected. Thank you for being such a great witness in the midst of trials.

    I just wanted to share a couple of things I learned in using the Creighton model. I too have had some issues with infertility. After talking to some friends about how they got pregnant, I learned a couple of things. I know when charting, they say that you should 'bear down' within an hour after dtd. Well, my friend said she fell asleep one night right after dtd and forgot to bear down. Lo and behold, she got pregnant. So I tried it too, and it worked. Obviously it's all in God's hands, and whatever He wills, we must accept, but I thought I'd share because this was such a revelation for me. God bless you.

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  5. JB- life is so bittersweet, isn't it? So much of trusting God's will is being able to accept and live in the tension of wanting and of goodbyes. Your faith in offering your pain and staying close to Jesus during this time is a light to the world. Thank you for sharing your story.

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  6. I think Easter will see your miracle...

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  7. You certainly are going through a lot right now. Hopefully you'll soon have a pregnancy miracle. Good luck!

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  8. :( So sorry for all this. I wish I could zoom up to Canada and hug you!! Praying for Easter joy for you, my wonderful friend.

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  9. Boy, your post about K having feelings for someone who does not share those same feelings for her made me remember the times I've "pined" after someone who was not interested in me. That is a tough situation but could now be easier for her since he'll be out of site for a long time, right?

    Sorry about AF arriving...but Lenten miracles don't necessarily have to happen during Lent...can't they happen afterward? Don't give up hope yet. You don't know. But what ever God has planned for you...you will be okay and you will have peace.

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  10. You remain an inspiration to me, JB. Have a Blessed Holy Week!

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  11. So sorry for all of your goodbyes :( praying you get to meet your little miracle really soon!

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  12. I'm sorry about the loss of Uncle Jack and all the other sufferings going on. Remember that Lent isn't over yet and your prayer buddies prayers may be putting something in motion right now.

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  13. Goodbyes are never fun! But, you certainly are one strong, faithful woman to be handling them so well!

    Sorry to hear about AF-but, I love your husband's optimism and strength...feed off that when you're feeling down!

    Praying you have a holy, happy week and a very blessed Easter!!!

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  14. So much to bear. Sending prayers for a peace-full, grace filled Triduum.

    Stupid AF. :(

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