I've written before about my struggles with self-image. I've definitely taken it easy exercise-wise since my surgeries, but now that I'm feeling like my old self, I've noticed something.
My clothes aren't quite fitting they way they should.
I know that I'm older than 35 (ouch), that my metabolism isn't what it was when I was in my 20's -- when I could eat like a horse, barely exercise and barely push 100lbs.
Oh man, those were the days.
I put on a pair of pants that I haven't worn since before the winter and they were snug. And not just by a little bit.
I know that I can ramp up my exercise routine. The once a week aquafit class and one strenuous yoga class aren't enough (particularly when I miss two weeks in a row).
So I had the bright idea of starting to jog with Mr. JB.
He's been told to lose weight and reduce his cholesterol and he's been walking (although not as regularly as he should). Our family doctor has given him three months. We live in an area full of parks and trails, so running is something that we could do easily AND it wouldn't cost anything (yoga and aquafit aren't free!).
But I hate running.
I used to do it while I was still in school. I would jog with one of my roommates, I would run on the treadmill and the elliptical and I dreaded every moment.
I ran for a few years and when I gave it up I was so happy -- I never experienced the runner's high that I've heard so many talk about.
I am hoping that having a partner to run with, particularly one who has specific fitness goals, is going to help me (have I mentioned that I'm competitive? I'd love to be able to beat Mr. JB in a run!). I also know that I need to do something else physical because I have been so stressed out -- I'm one of those people that have excess energy and I need to do something constructive with it!
So, I'm going to take baby steps. Rebecca totally inspired me this morning when I read her post. I would love to be able to run 5kms without falling over dead!
I'm trying to push the thoughts of "What if I get pg?" "Is it dangerous to TTC while jogging?"
[Goodness, maybe I should Goo.gle that!]
Right now, this jogging plan feels right. And knowing that it will help me get back into shape is definitely the best motivator.
I know that I'll never be a swimsuit model (particularly after all of the crazy scars on my belly), but I'd like to say goodbye to the unnecessary cushioning! It's not the kind of big belly I want right now!