With aqua yoga-tai-lates.
My awesome chiropractor suggested trying some water exercise as I recuperate and I found a yoga-tai chi-pilates class in the water at my local community centre AND it's also in the warm therapy pool (the water temperature is 33C/92F) so the water is perfect.
Not only is the exercise more gentle, but I love that I feel so incredibly strong, and it's been a long time since I've felt strong.
I'm the second-youngest person in the class and I always do the modifications to make the exercises more difficult -- I was sore last week and I'm a little sore tonight, but I feel so good when I get home.
I'm feeling so much better physically that I think that I'm going to add another yoga class to my fitness schedule (I'm currently doing two easy classes: a Yin and a Restorative). There's an Ashtanga prep class on Saturday mornings that I am ready to return to after the March Break, which is two weeks earlier than I planned.
I know that my need to exercise is part of my need to control something in my body. IF has taken so much of my peace of mind and exercising is the one thing that I can do that can help me forget. I am also one of those strange people that enjoys the physical exertion of a good workout. I know that I am still a long way away from being where I was physically before my surgeries, but being pain-free is a pretty awesome trade-off.
I am trying so hard to be gentle with myself. After two disappointing cycles, I know that I have to re-frame my thinking since these are our first actual fertile cycles ever (which is still hard to stomach since we have been married for over six years).
As I drove home from my class tonight I passed through the part of my neighbourhood that we want to live in. I know that the financial hardships that we are facing are going to be for good. I believe that the Lord is having me prioritize what we really need and not just what we want. I would love to have a beautiful detached home with a big yard, but we have a lovely, affordable home now.
And to top it off this time next week we will be in beautiful Arizona. I can't wait!!!