Part of me is so relieved since I was feeling like an out of control, hormonal maniac.
But most of all I feel sad.
I know that something needs to change, but I feel like I'm stuck in the hamster wheel of TTC. I'm petrified of starting the adoption process. I'm scared to stop trying. And I know that pretending that living life without children is not an option.
I wish that someone would just make the decision for me.
If only it were that easy.
I'm so tired of feeling sad. I'm so tired of living my life in two week increments. Most of all, I'm tired of being childless.
Are there any psychics out there? Anyone have any visions of my future?