11 June 2012

My Racing Heart

I wish I could say that my anxiety has gotten better.

But it hasn't.

I thought that my anxiety was more situational, but as it persists, I'm starting to think otherwise.

When I was in university this anxiety was paralyzing. I couldn't get out of bed, I couldn't function. I have too many responsibilities to be bedridden.

Today we have the day off to write report cards. I got quite a bit of work done yesterday, but I have a bunch of marking to get to. I couldn't get out of bed until 10am. Every time I woke up my heart was racing, so I just went back to sleep. Not the best coping mechanism, but I didn't know what else to do.

I hate this feeling.

I see my Napro doctor at 2:45pm. I really hope that she has an explanation.

13 comments:

  1. Oh no! I hate this- been there too. You are in my prayers in a special way today. Keep us posted on what the doc says.

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  2. Wow, absolutely no fun. Praying you can find an answer and a solution asap.

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  3. I'm so sorry! See if your doctor can prescribe something like clonazepam.

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  4. I imagine it must be hard for you to not then feel more anxious because of the anxiety! I hope the doctor can offer some good help.

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  5. Could be all those hormones? A tendency toward anxiety and years of ttc, it can't be a good combo.
    My mother has heart palpitations as a result of anxiety, she had to eliminate all caffeine and alchol, give that a try.

    For me, running, wearing myself down into pure exhaustion helps, it really does. As well as other cognitive therepist like assigning worrying time(5 minutes of every hour, and only worrying during that time) eventually the amount of time each hour will diminish until one day you will find that you have nothing to worry about durin by our assigned worry times.

    I'm sure you have heard all this before.

    Hope you get some relief soon

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  6. So sorry, JB! I hope your doctor has some answers! Praying!

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  7. Praying for you. I hope you get an answer from the Dr. & some peace in your heart.

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  8. I'm so very sorry and i hope that the doctor is able to help you!! I'm glad summer is just around the corner for you...you totally deserve it!!

    Praying for you and hoping this passes sooner than later.

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  9. Praying!!! I like Nadine's suggestion of "worry time".

    Anxiety has been creeping in more and more lately for me and I can't imagine 5 more years of it all...the pressure and stress post-surgery, it's all. just. so. much.

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  10. Could you be on too much T3?

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  11. Praying for you!! Hopefully the doctor has answers.

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  12. I'm reading this a couple of days late, so I'm really hoping you've gotten some answers by now!

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