7 June 2012

Anxious JellyBelly

I usually come off as a pretty confident person. I'm an extrovert, I enjoy public speaking and (I believe) that I'm pretty likeable.

Unfortunately, I have had to deal with horrible panic attacks since early adulthood.

Don't get me wrong, therapy, medications and now having a stable thyroid helps, but I'm having a really bad morning

It's tough when I have to deal with my crazy class when I'm feeling like I'm going to have a heart attack. I've been trying deep breathing techniques and just staying busy, but I can't shake t.

The worst part is that Mr JB is going away for the weekend and I dread being home alone while I'm feeling like this. I don't want to ask him to stay, but I feel so out of control.

The thing that set me off this morning was getting more news about Mr F. Apparently the cancer is in his bone marrow and he's only working half days. He will be at the mass said for him tomorrow night so I will be able to talk to him myself, but as soon as I heard I almost fell apart.

Please say a prayer that this anxiety passes. Feeling like this is the worst!

16 comments:

  1. Ugh :(( You can call me anytime this weekend if you are bored and/or stressing out.

    Praying for you!

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  2. I hate cancer... not the most profound statement, I know (I mean who loves it?). I am so sorry another loved one is going through this! It's enough to give anyone a panic attack. Praying you're able to feel peace.

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  3. Praying for you! The Man used to have panic attacks and they are horrible. :(

    If you need anything this weekend, I'm an email away!

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  4. Praying for you and your friend!

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  5. I hope you feel better soon - panic attacks are the worst. I know you can be strong for Mr F tomorrow.

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  6. I am so sorry you are going through this. :( I'm sending up extra prayers! PS, I think you are very likeable. :)

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  7. I have had those anxiety moments myself...and I'm thankful that the thyroid meds seemed to have helped with that. Deep breathing is great. Do you have any friends or family near by that you can visit with while the hubs is away? I also rent movies that I know my hubby won't watch with me(good chick flicks). hehehe

    I'll be keeping you in my prayers.

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  8. Ugh, JB, I'm so sorry! My sister deals with these too and it's just the worst! You are in my prayers.

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  9. Prayers are heading your way!

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  10. Prayers are heading your way!

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  11. You are for sure very likeable! :) Sounds like your adrendals are tired out... maybe time to hop back into adrendal repair mode? And time to give up rushing and do belly breaths throughout the day whenever stress rises? Cancer is terrible - I hope things go as well as they can.

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  14. I hope you had a relaxing weekend, JB.

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  15. I'm sorry I'm late to comment, but I'm praying for you and Mr. F.

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