24 January 2012

JellyBelly vs. Hormones

Or at least that's what I'm blaming my crazies on today.

I just had a meltdown.

And I'm not proud of it.

Let me back up: I had the worst day ever. It started with my smoothie spilling all over my stuff which resulted in a twenty minute cleanup -- bending is getting easier, but having to clean drippy smoothie was not my idea of fun at 8am. I was panicked because I had before-school yard supervision and I could see that the clock was working against me.

I finished tidying up my mess just in time to head outside. I like to have a couple of minutes to get my head wrapped around my day, but this morning I had zero time.

Then I decided to change my seating arrangement back to what it was before I left. My substitute separated the kids into pairs and I put them back into groups. I prefer the group set-up since the kids work better co-operatively AND makes the classroom so much bigger. I have a rocking chair in one corner of my room and I wasn't able to use it since the desks were in the way. I also hope that the kids will stop saying, "When Mme S was here, we did this..." now things are back to the way they were before my leave.

We made paper bag dragons to celebrate Chinese New Year and the activity took half the day. My teaching partner did the same activity and it took her an hour. Needless to say, I got a bit stressed out since they took so long. I don't like to skip math, but I had to since I couldn't stop them in the middle of their cutting and gluing frenzy.

I've been dealing with some difficult kids in my class -- mainly it's bad attitude and laziness.  I've tried positive reinforcement, negative reinforcement, praising the good kids to show them what kind of behaviour that I expect, speaking to their parents, etc., etc. The next thing I'm going to do is pray a class rosary the next time they misbehave, even if it's to just calm me down!

So after my very long, bad day I had a massage to look forward to. When I got home I asked Mr. JB to give me a hug and then he asked me about the recipe we chose for dinner tonight.

Mr. JB enjoys cooking, but he doesn't like to venture out of his comfort zone. We found a really easy Mexican soup recipe and we decided that he would make it tonight since I was getting home late. He insists that his question was rhetorical, but I was just so tired and hungry that I broke down.

I know that it was the frustration of the day and not his question, but I just couldn't take an ounce more. He was very apologetic and I felt like a complete a$$ since I don't normally act like a lunatic when he asks me cooking-related questions.

Honestly, the last days of a 2WW are the pits!

Stupid, stupid hormones. I thought HCG was going to miraculously fix my crazies, I guess I have to wait another cycle for that!!


  1. Hey, everybody has meltdown-inducing bad days...don't be too hard on yourself. Sounds like your hubby was pretty understanding. Tomorrow will be better, I promise!!

  2. Blech... hormones! And yes, everyone has days like that. Praying that tomorrow is lots better! :)

  3. sending you hugs. I hope your class will settle down soon ... it adds so much stress to your day when the kiddos are acting up.

  4. Hope you are feeling better soon. There is nothing like a crazy craft with a bunch of 2nd graders to brings the side effects of hormones quickly to the surface.

  5. Hope the soup turned out great and it is the little things that send us over the edge. Hope you two can have a glass of wine tonight too :)

  6. Ahh hormones. Without my hcg this month I was a nut......the ENTIRE month. How fun is that?

  7. I've been known to guilt-trip 5 year olds when they misbehave ;) You'd be surprised how much your disappointment in them alone is enough to incur a change. Although at this point, they are probably just winding down from feeling like it was free-for-all time when you got back and everything was "different." Hang in there, they will come around!

  8. Everyone goes through this! Grab a glass of wine after work today and just "be". Take 15 minutes and do nothing. Hang in there!

  9. You poor thing! Sending you hugs. I love the idea of the class rosary. Too bad good old fashion whoopin's are no longer allowed! ;) I hope he got that soup question figured out. My mom has a funny story about when she was a kid and my aunt was making a cake for the first time and she yelled out the back door to my mom and her mom (my grandmother), "what size spoon do I use to stir it with?" Hee hee.

  10. Big Hugs! Hormones - ugh. Hopefully it will all be worth it! :) (and the little story above in the comments is hilar)

  11. Awww...Thank God that day is over. I hope the soup was good, and the rest of the week gets better.

  12. Your husband will never ask you that question again??!! Kidding, hormones suck, I was a crazy person on HCG. I hated taking it. I hope dinner was good and hope you are having a better day!

  13. After a long, hard, stressful day, I am the same way ... and my hubby sometimes gets a curt response or break down too. I hate days like that and I'm so sorry you had one. :-(
    It would drive me nuts to hear "when Mme So and So was here we did this" all day too. Ugh! Kids are adorable and frustrating at that age. I hope they start behaving again SOON!

  14. I am sorry it was such a rough day. I am a firm believer of treating yourself after a day like that!

  15. I'm thinking you need more than HCG to get rid of the crazies.... hehehehe. Just kidding surgery buddy. :)

  16. If the HCG has made me less crazy, I haven't noticed. (Unless that implies I would actually have STRANGLED the two IF girls I know who suddenly have babies? Maybe they should be thanking God I'm on meds, and they don't even know it...) Hope it's more helpful to you!

  17. Your classroom sounds a lot like mine with groups and a rocking chair ;) And, of course, the few rascals. Teaching second grade is hard enough when everything goes right. Throw in a spill, glue, construction paper, mixed up dinner plans, crazy hormones and it's a recipe for disaster. Take care of yourself- hope today was better!!

  18. I know you can't laugh at it now...but I see a good story in the smoothie event.

    It somewhat compares to the car accident I had on my way to my Reproductive Endocrinologist--in a gas station. I wasn't laughing at the time....but, I can now with some hindsight.

    It's always darkest before the dawn!!!!
    Praying for you and this cycle!!!

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