5 March 2008

Calgon Take Me Away!

I've been feeling quite overwhelmed. It's crunch time in teacher-land. I've been trying to finish up my units, keep my tired and over-worked students motivated, get marks for my report cards AND not lose my mind when it's too cold/snowy/windy/icy to go outside. It doesn't help that with the crazy southern Ontario winter that we've been having buses have been cancelled or the schools have been closed outright. Needless to say, I'm scrambling since our report cards are due at the end of the month and I feel like I'm going to be making up marks! 

In preparation for our first March Break trip to somewhere where it isn't cold, I got a pedicure today. Since I look at my feel a lot during yoga I knew that my tootsies needed some loving before I could even dream of putting on a pair of flip flops. My spa of choice is absolutely wonderful. I sat in the hot tub, used the yummy smelling lotions and sat in the most comfortable chair while waiting for my treatment. All of my school-related stress melted away.

As I sat in the whirlpool chair (would it be indulgent to get one for my living room???) and I had the massage settings doing wonders for my sore back, and my aesthetician chatted happily to me (a little loud for the spa-atmosphere, but friendly nonetheless). We made mindless small-talk about our jobs, husbands and vacations. And then we moved onto doctors. 

I know that she couldn't possibly know that I had been struggling with infertility for over two and a half years. She couldn't possibly know that I was having serious doubts about my worthiness to be a mother. And she couldn't possibly know that her next comment was going to send my happy pampering-ness plummeting to the ground.

"Yeah, my doctor prescribed me Percocet for my endometriosis... I was never supposed to get pregnant, but I just did!"

Imagine that!

I know that she is probably a very nice person and probably a very good mother, but I couldn't help but scream in my head:

"Doctors cannot find a reason for why I haven't gotten pregnant! I have had a battery of tests and everything is clear -- uterus, ovaries, tubes!!!! What is going on here???? She wasn't even trying to get pregnant!!!! ARGH!!!!!"

Well, at least I have really pretty feet that are sandal-ready. I can't wait to get on that plane, hopefully there isn't any IF in Arizona...


  1. I was at a spa last year before my IVF cycle and the esthetician told me pretty much the same thing.

    Have you ever had a lap? Could you have endo? Just a thought. . .

  2. no lap, but i've had an HSG (what fun!) and saline sonohysterogram (sp?). according to my doc i'm all clear...

    maybe i could find a silent spa somewhere, do they exist in the GTA?

  3. I'm so sorry she ruined your serenity; your day sounded so lovely up until then. There is just no way to avoid the comments from left field, no matter what we do. Maybe we could have t-shirts printed up: NO, I DON'T WANT TO HEAR ABOUT YOUR PREGNANCY.

  4. An HSG will not find endo, only a lap will, and endo can screw up your cycle as well.

    So maybe it might be worth looking at?

    When you get back and you aren't overwhelmed, we should all get together for brunch or something. I thought you were going to do that anyway, actually! chuckle....

    Have a good vacation and forget about school, okay?