20 January 2014

A new beginning...

I am trying to frame the news that my FSH has climbed to a high of 21 and my wonderful, hopeful doctor saying, "You can't get pregnant without help." in the most positive way possible. 

I knew going into my appointment today that I need a treatment break. 

Almost nine years of the IF struggle has worn me down and I knew in my heart that I was spent. 

I am look forward to finally finishing our homestudy. 

I am looking forward to having something else besides my broken body to focus on.  

Please Lord, give me strength. 

17 comments:

  1. Love you JB!! I am so excited to see what your future holds. :)

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  2. This is such hard news. I'm so sorry. Cry as much as you need to. Then work on that homestudy, you will be a mom.

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  3. I second Hebrews and E! Be assured of our prayers for a bright, beautiful new beginning! Blessings to you and Mr. JB!!

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  4. I know all about finishing a home study...since I've given up the med treatment plan myself and have been focusing on adoption...I feel so much better..mentally and physically. It's almost a huge relief. I don't have those monthly expectations or wonderings. I know you get it. Praying for you!

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  5. I'm so very very sorry. I'll keep you in my prayers... for a peaceful surrender to His will, and for your (however tentative) next steps...

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  6. I agree with Hebrews - God has wonderful plans for you! You are in my prayers!

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  7. I am sorry for the bad FSH news, but excited about the possible adoption opportunities in your future. I will continue to pray.

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  8. Prayers and hugs! (With extras of the hugs - well snuggles - from my cat.) I hope that this treatment break becomes a restoring time for you.

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  9. Sometimes really bad news gives you the freedom not to be shackled any longer to a hopeless hope. Doesn't mean it isn't hard to hear, but I find that in not trying any more, there is a surprising peace. I hope this is indeed the start of a new and fruitful journey for you both.

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  10. There's amazing freedom in what you are doing. Doesn't make it easy, but it's freeing. Praying for ou, I can't wait I see what's to come!

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  11. I can't wait to hear that you're home study is finished! Lord, give JB strength and peace.

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  12. Oh JB. Prayers for you. Adoption can be just that -- so freeing. SO very lifegiving for everyone. I cannot WAIT to see what is ahead.

    "For I know the plans I have for you. Plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans for a HOPE and a FUTURE." - Jeremiah 29:11. (one of my favorites)

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  13. Praying for you. And for your future to be filled with unending joy.

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  14. We've said it before, and I'll say it again. In the absence of any hope for myself, I hold tight to the understanding that we are each other's hope. The last 2 standing after nearly double the amount of time of our once-comrades... I still have all the hope in the world for you, and it comforts me to know you carry the hope for me :)

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  15. Oh, JB, sorry to hear about your FSH. I hope your homestudy is done soon. Pips and I pray for you every night before bed, that whatever way He has planned your family grows this year. Hugs!

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  16. Praying for your homestudy to be easy and for lots of wonderful gifts to come your way!

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