7 July 2013

What does it say about me?

What does it say about me that I lied to my crazy mother about being busy this afternoon so I could miss my cousin's baby mama's shower.

And I don't even feel guilty.

I feel angry. 

And jealous. 

But not guilty. 

Instead, I will work on my coursework and then go to the movies. 

Lord, one day this will all make sense. Right? 

p.s. I'm going to have popcorn at the movies even though it's in my "can't eat before taking T3" window. Yup, I am such a rebel.

p.p.s. I went back to my old dose of T3 (7.5mg, twice a day) and the anxiety has stopped. I'm so glad since the taking my temperature four times a day got old very quickly. Stupid thyroid. 

11 comments:

  1. It only says you are trying to insulate your heart from more pain. BTW, does your mom read this blog? Ha ha. Enjoy your movie and the forbidden popcorn. You know, it's normal to feel certain emotions. You wouldn't be human otherwise. It's how we react that counts. Going to the movies and adding some insulation is not naughty :)

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  2. Popcorn and chocolate sound much better at a movie than a baby shower...

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  3. It says that you're human. It says that you don't need any more drama. It says that you are taking care of YOU. And that's all good. Praying that your day got better! Hugs!

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  4. What Patty, Julie, and Donna all said!

    Love you!!!

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  5. That's not a lie. You were busy. "Busy" just means "I have something more important to do than what you're asking me to do." Check and check.

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  6. I've been taking T3 for a long time now and I don't take my temp..haven't been told to do that. My gp does take blood tests every three months to monitor. Also, I eat with my meds...no problem there either. Interesting how we are all told (or not told) to take these same meds differently. I don't blame you for not going to the shower...you are not obligated and you didn't lie..you were busy doing fun things...like the movies.

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  7. It means you're human. Keeping you in prayer.

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  8. Oh oops.. this is Sarah from "Sarah's Journal". Sorry, I keep commenting from the wrong account.

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  9. Sounds like exactly what you deserve to do! Glad you took time for yourself!

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  10. Best decision not to go for sure.

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  11. I am getting T3 for some time today i job my temp..are not informed to accomplish this. My personal gp will take bloodstream checks each and every 90 days to observe. Furthermore, My partner and i consume along with our medications...no problem generally there possibly. Fascinating the way we are informed (you aren't instructed) to consider the same medications in a different way. I do not blame you because of going to the shower...you aren't obliged and also you failed to lie..you had been occupied undertaking entertaining points...much like the films. Gold Kaufen für World of Warcraftcheapest runescape gold

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