25 January 2013

FML or The Stresses of Being IF

I just spent the past hour in the car.

In a snowstorm.

Yes, a Canadian snowstorm.

It's pretty freaking bad out there.

Do you know why I was out in this horrible weather instead of under a blanket drinking a cup of tea? I had forgotten to get my blood drawn for my hormone profile (yes, I've lost count how many I've had, but I refused to have an ultrasound series done as well, I just couldn't do that). I had stayed a little later at school so I could tidy up and get a few things ready for Monday. I had gone every day after school, but it just slipped my mind. I guess my sore inner arms weren't reminder enough.

I was all excited to go get my nails done (yes, even a snowstorm wasn't going to stop me from being vain), and I realized that I had completely forgotten. Have I mentioned that the lab is really close to my school, but not very close to my house.

I drove for forty-five minutes (the drive usually takes fifteen minutes, tops) to arrive at a closed lab. I really shouldn't have tried, but I had no idea how quickly or slowly I would get there. I could've banged on the door since I got there just a few minutes after it closed, but I felt so defeated that I turned around and went home.

At least the drive only took half an hour.

I tried to offer up the frustration, but I felt like such an idiot.

I realize that missing one blood draw isn't the end of the world AND I can go in the morning (which also means that I don't have to go on Monday, which also happens to be my birthday, who wants to have blood drawn on their birthday???). If it wasn't so close to Peak day I wouldn't have worried.


I was so upset that I even shoveled the snow, which is light and fluffy and very easy to shovel.

I feel like crying in frustration, but after this many years of IF, I just need to shrug it off.

And wake up early so I don't have to wait in line FOREVER at the lab.

And yes, I can get my nails done tomorrow or Sunday when the weather isn't crazy bad.

What I really should've done is forgotten about the lab and just went to the nail salon. In retrospect, there was no way I could've made it to the lab in time.

Live and learn, right?

I got to practice my mad driving skills -- I'm really good at driving in the snow, although I touched my St. Christopher visor clip more than once and said a few Hail Marys for help.

Lord God, what IF makes us do.



  1. Ugh, that sounds very frustrating! I don't usually comment, but I had to chime in because apparently we share a birthday. :) I'll say a special birthday prayer that your stressful IF days are behind you soon~

  2. I second the idea of screwing the blood draw and getting the nails done. A birthday with no blood draws sounds like a good consolation prize. Glad you got home safe. Now, enjoy that tea!

  3. At least the snow was light & fluffy.. I just got done shoveling 4inches of the fluffy stuff myself. Yeah for getting your nails done.

  4. Lesson learned indeed...go with the nail salon next time! ;)

    I'm so very sorry that you're dealing with all this. I pray for you often and even though you may not feel it, you're an inspiration of courage and strength...much stronger than you probably think missy!

  5. Those donkey balls all over again, sigh… I am so sorry.

  6. Yeah, go get your nails done, you deserve it! That sounds like a frustrating night, I am partying* for you! I meant praying for you, my auto correct changed it but I thought I would leave it, lol :)

  7. And you had pancakes this morning! Yes, next time go for the nail salon :). I spent an hour and a half in our WV snowstorm yesterday, just trying to pick up The Man from work...seriously, a husband who thinks he should get to come home on a Friday afternoon? The nerve! (J/k, of course).

    I tell you this story to say, because if it had been me, I would've done the same thing you did - tried to make it to the lab on time. Oh, you are right, the crazy things IF makes us do!

    Hoping your Saturday is relaxing and warm! And Happy early Birthday!

  8. Just found your blog! IF is a bitch. I'll be looking forward to following you and rooting for your BFP!

  9. Darn that IF. (that is a kind comment ... I know you can fill in worse :) I will agree with whatever you say!)
    Getting your nails done sounds like a treat! How about adding a massage?
    I wish you a very happy early Birthday!
    Know you are always in my prayers.

  10. Uggh! So, so frustrating.

    I hope you enjoyed your manicure when you finally got it.

    Happy Birthday!

  11. I'm glad to see that you went and it was heavenly!! May you have a happy birthday and may God bless you abundantly through this next year!

  12. Sorry about the rough night. IF is such a burden. :(
    BUT, I'm glad you did get your nails done afterall.

    And slow and steady wins the race with winter driving, no pressure to go faster! :)

  13. I feel like after all this time, you should get to skip the blood draws and go straight to diagnosis, like a platinum member at the airport. (Haven't we racked up enough miles for that?) And yes, I have a months-old scrip to get my TSH re-tested sitting in my purse...why?

    So I agree: next time, nail salon first; blood draws later!

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