I just spent the past hour in the car.
In a snowstorm.
Yes, a Canadian snowstorm.
It's pretty freaking bad out there.
Do you know why I was out in this horrible weather instead of under a blanket drinking a cup of tea? I had forgotten to get my blood drawn for my hormone profile (yes, I've lost count how many I've had, but I refused to have an ultrasound series done as well, I just couldn't do that). I had stayed a little later at school so I could tidy up and get a few things ready for Monday. I had gone every day after school, but it just slipped my mind. I guess my sore inner arms weren't reminder enough.
I was all excited to go get my nails done (yes, even a snowstorm wasn't going to stop me from being vain), and I realized that I had completely forgotten. Have I mentioned that the lab is really close to my school, but not very close to my house.
I drove for forty-five minutes (the drive usually takes fifteen minutes, tops) to arrive at a closed lab. I really shouldn't have tried, but I had no idea how quickly or slowly I would get there. I could've banged on the door since I got there just a few minutes after it closed, but I felt so defeated that I turned around and went home.
At least the drive only took half an hour.
I tried to offer up the frustration, but I felt like such an idiot.
I realize that missing one blood draw isn't the end of the world AND I can go in the morning (which also means that I don't have to go on Monday, which also happens to be my birthday, who wants to have blood drawn on their birthday???). If it wasn't so close to Peak day I wouldn't have worried.
I was so upset that I even shoveled the snow, which is light and fluffy and very easy to shovel.
I feel like crying in frustration, but after this many years of IF, I just need to shrug it off.
And wake up early so I don't have to wait in line FOREVER at the lab.
And yes, I can get my nails done tomorrow or Sunday when the weather isn't crazy bad.
What I really should've done is forgotten about the lab and just went to the nail salon. In retrospect, there was no way I could've made it to the lab in time.
Live and learn, right?
I got to practice my mad driving skills -- I'm really good at driving in the snow, although I touched my St. Christopher visor clip more than once and said a few Hail Marys for help.
Lord God, what IF makes us do.