Preparing for the worst

So things with my father-in-law's girlfriend is much worse than we thought. Not only is on morphine, but her family has decided to stop feeding her. In fact, she hasn't eaten in ten days.

It is obvious that she is not long for this world.

My FIL went to see her today and he was pretty shaken up when Mr. JB talked to him. One of daughters-in-law was sponging water into her mouth and she was able to recognize him.

Her sister passed away a couple of weeks ago and it seems like she will be joining her soon.

I am sad, but I also have a lot of mixed emotions.

You see, my FIL's girlfriend didn't like me.

At all.

When she was well she made my life miserable. I know that she said untrue, horrible things behind my back. She was jealous of the fact that I actually married into the family while she was just a "girlfriend" (I will never understand why my FIL stayed with her for so long, he didn't want to marry her, and she lived in her own home and they fought all the time).

I am so sad that my FIL is going through something so sad. I am sad that her kids have to go through this. Mr. JB reminds me that at one point, before my time, he had good memories. Unfortunately, in the past (almost) eight years, those distant memories are what he has had to hold onto.

I've been praying about this. I pray for J every night, despite my feelings.

Please continue your prayers for her. I hope that she finds comfort in her pain.